chiyo sakura 🌸 (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
admiringly) wrote in ![[community profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/community.png)
retrospec2018-01-28 08:27 pm
admiringly) wrote in retrospec2018-01-28 08:27 pm
Entry tags:
02 ❀ it's almost february
i know that a lot of crazy things happened in the city this month but can you believe valentine's day is in a little over two weeks?
do any of you have special plans? do you have someone you like? admire? have a crush on?
are you going to give your friends chocolate or cards?
are you lucky and dating someone that makes you so so happy?
if you're comfortable with it will you please tell me about them all?
tell me about the people in your life!
tell me about love!
tell me how love's changed things for you!
i want to hear about the good things that are happening in your life!
do any of you have special plans? do you have someone you like? admire? have a crush on?
are you going to give your friends chocolate or cards?
are you lucky and dating someone that makes you so so happy?
if you're comfortable with it will you please tell me about them all?
tell me about the people in your life!
tell me about love!
tell me how love's changed things for you!
i want to hear about the good things that are happening in your life!
no subject
or a lot scary?
i was too scared to go in too deep so i don't know how scary it actually was or is
no subject
The subway was kind of scary. Don't go down there.
no subject
it's kind of like train hard to run a marathon and so you have the stamina to run it without too much trouble
but somewhere along the way you think that maybe you don't?
so i kind of wanted a pick me up or something like an energy boost?
i want to be brave and strong enough someday to go into someplace like the subway but for now i won't
did you go all the way through the subway?
no subject
I went through a couple of times. There was a place where they replayed other life memories. I stayed to draw faces and scenery so I could remember them.
no subject
i would feel like a bother or a burden because i couldn't do much if i asked to go with someone
i don't want to a constant worry on the other person's mind
a place that replays memories? that's kind of invasive isn't it? i know some people like to be really private
were they important people to you? the ones that you drew?
no subject
It's kind of invasive, yeah. Saw some memories I probably shouldn't have. My memories, though... People were important in that we were part of the same team. But my impression is that we weren't exactly friends.
no subject
it's not like you chose for the memories to play so i hope it ended ok for you and whoever you were with
did you want to be friends with your teammates in your memories?
no subject
I don't know. We weren't getting along, but an efficient team should be able to manage at least that. Maybe all I saw were the rough spots, and things got better.
no subject
i know you're honest when it counts
and that's probably true! i'm sure you'll get memories where you work things out
especially if you were working hard to accomplish something!
no subject
It doesn't matter anymore, but we'll see.
no subject
i don't know what your experience is? tell me what it is!
i'll believe you
and why doesn't it matter? shouldn't it matter?
no subject
It doesn't matter because what's done is done. It has nothing to do with me.
no subject
well i guess you're right about that since the world in our memories isn't the world we're in right now
do you think the you in your memories is someone very different from you?
no subject
I think we're similar people. He feels a lot more strongly than I do, but everything he says and does, I can see myself doing. What about you?
no subject
hmm i think i feel about the same
there are some key things that are different but i think i'd react to a lot of things the same way
except she likes someone a lot and i'm not sure why she does
no subject
I think he had those sorts of feelings too. Affection.
[ he refuses to say the L word ]
Maybe it'll take more memories of the person to learn why.
no subject
??
it'll take a lot for you to lose my trust i think?
if don't have bad intentions that's what matters to me
and that's great! i'm glad he liked the people he was working with
that's great!
yeah! most of my memories so far are him being really weird or odd but
i'm sure she wouldn't have bad taste in guys!!
no subject
He liked people, but not really the ones he was working with. Girls, and stuff.
[ Five of them. At one time. ]
I hear weird a lot... But as long as he's not a bad person, weird and odd aren't bad things. It's the sort of stuff that catches people's eyes, right? Makes them stand out. You pay more attention to a person, and that attention becomes interest.
no subject
that means you'll be fine!
i believe in you
and there's nothing wrong with liking girls and stuff?
i think there are worse things
but yeah you're right!
that's a really good way to think about it
see minato if the you in your memories is how you're like here think your team definitely worked things out!
and it could be i thought one way about him and then it turned out he wasn't like that and learning the truth made me see him in a different light!
but also i described the person i liked to him and he said, "what's so good about that guy?"
and i think i was talking about him? i don't know for sure
no subject
Like murder?
The me here is better at talking to one person than running an efficient team, so I don't think those things correlate. I can sort of understand how that guy feels, though. It's hard to look at yourself and see what's there to like. And sometimes when people describe what they like about you, those are the things you actually dislike.
no subject
yeah murder is up there
wanting and seeking to hurt people is wrong
but... circumstances matter
reasons do matter
[ She found out Yato chopped off some man's hands and she still likes him, so that's something to mull over. ]
hmmm that is difficult to accept
is it that bad if people like things that you hate?
i don't think you have to like those things too but it can give you a different perspective?
i think if you can talk to people one on one that's still good
do you have to lead a team right now?
if it's something you want to do i think it's something you can work on with other people?
like you don't have to do it on your own but you can talk about it with others
but only if that's what you want to do!
no subject
It's not bad. Was just trying to put myself in his shoes. Trying to understand people, which I'm evidently not great at.
There's no reason to have a team. Nothing I need to do. Can't see myself having one either, since I'm used to just being by myself.
no subject
that sounds a little lonely
aren't you lonely?
i know you think of people so even if you can't understand them at first i do know you are trying
understanding someone isn't a one-sided thing since i don't think you can always know what someone is thinking
you need that other person to try too
no subject
I'm not lonely. Keeping busy guarantees that, so does sleeping when I have the free time, etc. Too many people just gets really hard to manage when I can barely keep up with just one. There's nothing I can do about other people trying, so there's not really a point in thinking about it.
no subject
i don't know if i could live like that but if that's how you want to live i can't say anything about it
i hope you keep your important people close
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
1/2
(no subject)