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hey so quick question how do I explain why I bleed ink to my boyfriend -yes he's already seen it -I was cutting up vegetables and scratched a finger -it'd be great if someone could give advice relatively soon because I don't know how long 'I need to lie down and then I'll talk to you about it' will work, he's still panicking he's just not demanding an answer right this second thanks for the help

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It's alright. It's not your job to fix everyone else's problems.

It kind of is. I mean, that's what superheroes are for, right?

You're not a superhero, Kara.

[She's someone who used to be a superhero in a past life. It's different.]

But I should be! Shouldn't I?

No. You don't have to be what your past self was. You aren't what your past self was: we're different now. Not completely different, but different enough. You're not a superhero now just because your past self used to be, any more than I'm a middle schooler now because I used to be.

But I can't just be normal anymore. Now, if I trip down the stairs, I'm going to leave a crater where I landed. I want to at least do something good with it. And trying to be a hero is always a good thing, right?

Not always. If you want to do something good with it, that's your decision. I'm not going to stop you. You're a person with superpowers, but you don't have to be a superhero.

I guess... maybe. That girl in my memories said something like it, too. That I should just quit.

I'll think about it.

There's a difference between quitting and not having started in the first place.

So you're thinking I can't do it, or...

I'm thinking I'm not okay with people being forced to be the same as their past selves, because some of us have past selves we don't want to emulate in any way. If there wasn't any point in trying to be someone other than the garbage fire that was past me, I think I'd have a mental breakdown. It's fine if you want to help people with the powers you have, I'm not saying you can't. I'm saying that it's a choice.

So you just don't like people trying to be their past selves, or just assuming that they should. Uh. Sorry. I didn't mean to make things worse for you.

It's alright. Just, I cannot overstate how much I do not want to be past me. I know some people want to be more like their past selves and that's fine, go for it, but if it was an automatic thing then that would mean I was doomed to become the scum of the earth and I'm not okay with that.

He was really that bad?

Awful. Not even in the super villain kind of way, because at least that would be so divorced from my own experience that I wouldn't worry so much about turning into him? But the 'asshole who cheats on his wife and sucks up to people he hates' kind of way that normal (terrible) people are sometimes.

Oh, no, sorry... At least all I got is "basically me, but with superpowers and eventually got more friends and stuff." But if you don't want to be him, there's no way you'd have to. I mean, people haven't changed personality with this thing, right?

[Be glad this isn't Save the Earth, Shuji.]

I haven't, unless you count 'increasingly miserable' as a personality change, and that's not past me's fault.

I mean... I can't really say that's good, but at least you're not turning into him mental-wise.

That's true. Remember when we used to have standards?

I'm not sure that was ever kind of a thing, to be honest. I'm happy with the little stuff.

Okay, but we didn't expect things to go horribly wrong on a semiregular basis.

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