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[recollecters]

Don't bother the techs. Seriously, don't. I'm not entirely sure what's going on but all I'm getting is that it's the equivalent of being hacked and someone who knows layer theory better than we do is out there screwing things up and tampering with the project. I don't have a really good update for you guys, but bear with us. Please? Zee Carlisle Hiring Manager Retrspec Incorporated Per the mod plotting post, you may use this post to obtain one of this month's freebies! This month's freebie can be earned by turning in a thread on this post that has 10 or more consecutive comments from you. Please feel free to use this post as a network mingle. Every toplevel can be considered a new post, and threadjacking is permitted. No NPC response will be given. Usernames are the character's full real AU names, not aliases or chosen nicknames or usernames, and seemed to have filled themselves in; nothing characters do can change or obscure their names currently.

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[erythristic]

heartbreak is never easy, i know that well. if you feel like you need advice or someone to remind you what a wonderful young woman you are, don't hesitate.

[attached in links though are some recipes - easy to make nourishing foods that all promise to be delicious.]

[complementing]

Grell you're a saint



I just

well, I'm not the kind of girl that easily gives up, you know? A long distance relationship would've been possible

but it just didn't feel right, either

now that I remember everything about Retrospec again, I'm thinking of all the what ifs and should I haves

private.

[erythristic]

[probably, she thinks, it'd be better to say all this privately.]

unfortunately, we're never going to know "what if." what if i had been better, what if this or that, and it leads you around and around your own mind. there's nothing, really, you could have done. i know you, and i know you would have made it possible. but you did what you felt was most fair, and though it hurts, it's the kindest thing you could have done. else you'd be sitting there, a wall between you both that distance couldn't even touch.

you have so much love to give. someone one day will be there, through all manner of shady phone apps, and feel utterly blessed to have even a fraction of it bestowed upon them.

permaprivate

[complementing]

a wall...

I wasn't thinking of it at the time, but

yeah

that's what I wanted to avoid, I think

the last time I thought of so many what ifs, it was with my brother, and I messed up pretty badly there

I mean, I still doubt myself when it comes to him, really

I didn't want to put myself through it again

[erythristic]

understandable. there's not really a word for the feeling when they look at you like you're crazy when you mention what's happened.

[complementing]

well, with my brother it's more that he thinks I'm kind of crazy in general. Or kind of out of his realm of understanding, I guess

I kept trying to bridge the gap between us and kept doubting my ability to do so. We both kind of ended up miserable for it

so...lesson learned, I guess