tw: child death talk for this whole post

[spirithacker]

retrospec memory stuff

if you remembered dying
does it ever stop being scary
because its scary right now and i dont know why anyone would want to remember this

or does anyone know how to forget stuff
ill pay you
or do your homework
or something

Comments

[me_matey]

I think these days it's the most any of us can really hope for... That goes for me, too, of course. So don't feel like you're handling this alone.

[spirithacker]

Thanks, captain.

[He's never not going to call her that.]

...Can you check on Sakura for me? I think she's really upset too.

[He can't be near her, but he knows she didn't deserve this.]

[me_matey]

Mm... -Ugh. That was way too complicated a situation to explain to him...-

I think I need to give her space, actually. I know she's going through hard times, but... -She needs to resist the urge to cling to her and desperately fight off the shadows that haunted her. She needed to respect the distance between them. She had no right to behave like her lover when she wasn't...-

[spirithacker]

[It's way too complicated a situation for him, even if he knew what she meant.]

...I can't check on her.

[Not without making stuff worse.]

Can you write her a note or something...?

[me_matey]

How about I just text her. That's pretty safe, right?

[spirithacker]

Okay. Please text her.

[Shinji loves her, and so does May, so they should check up on her.]

[me_matey]

Gonna do it right now. -May pulled out her phone, quickly pulling up Sakura's inbox and typed up a quick text. Which was pretty amazing to do so one handed, the other arm occupied with still-hugging Shinji.-

[spirithacker]

[Amazing. Even in this state, Shinji's pretty impressed.]

Okay.

...It's not fair. That she feels bad over stuff she didn't even do. It's not her fault.

[me_matey]

I know, kid, I know... I really wish there was a magic wand I could wave to make it all better, to shower her in the love and warmth she deserves... Hell, I know enough about the other her that I want to do the same for them. It's not fair at all...

[spirithacker]

I want that magic wand to wave over me too.

[So he doesn't have to think about dying.]

That'd be better than all the other stuff Retrospec sends us. ...But we're never gonna get that.

[me_matey]

At least in the meantime... All of us, all of us stuck in this crazy thing, got each other.

So long as I'm here and breathin', I'm gonna fight. It's how I've always lived. And that means fightin' for Sakura, and even for you. -She had gotten pretty quickly attached to the guy...-

thread wrapup?

[spirithacker]

Thanks, captain.

[Even if he isn't really a part of her crew - he feels safer with her looking after him.]