002 - TM (TW- Death Mention)

[lingeringwill]

Terra Mason 06/11/17 near Recollé University

blue and green no longer exist outside of a few select cases. somehow, retrospec had the power to do that, along with everything else what don't they have the power to do? i wonder what else they've done that we may have just not noticed... the other day, someone got me thinking about patterns, and i started to realize something... let me conduct a bit of a morbid social experiment, okay? but in the interest of fairness, i'll go first when i was little my mother died. it was fast and sudden--a case of severe pneumonia. she was taken so fast. thief in the night, yeah? the first thing i can remember in my entire life is the look in my dad's eyes as he tried explaining it to me. i was too young to understand at the time...but even as i got older, i still didnt. how can she get that sick, out of nowhere? and just die. i know there's tons of rational reasons for it, but it doesn't sit well, it never has. i realize that this sounds like im refusing to accept the truth but...i can't help wondering. the pneumonia was like a switch. she just died. the universe didn't find her fit to exist anymore or maybe something else i think its obvious what im getting at so, show of hands, everyone. who has one or more dead parents? and if you know i already know the answer to that question...i'm sorry for bringing this back up. really.

Comments

[truedetective]

Hm. It's true that we do seem more likely to have lost parents than the base population. Yet some of us have perfectly loving, whole families. The elevated incidence is curious but it's also not apparently necessary. Interesting.

[lingeringwill]

thank you for not fucking CRUCIFYING me like everyone else

I just think it's worth noting
Maybe we're more desirable without parents

Maybe the people with loving families will end up like us eventually

Or a control sample

[truedetective]

Hm. I can see why some people might be upset by this. But are they really that angry with you for merely broaching the topic?

[lingeringwill]

take a look, my man

im being ripped apart left and right

i think im gonna be pretty publicly reviled from now on

[truedetective]

That's ridiculous. You're just asking a question.
Are people really that inclined to ignore possible truths?

[lingeringwill]

YES APPARENTLY

all these people calling me pathetic and shit : (

you're the only one who understands : (

[truedetective]

I suppose on some level I understand.
You are, after all, suggesting that their parents' deaths may have been intentional.
Yet as painful as it is, I don't see what good it does to ignore the possibility of the truth.