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[negativism]

So I'm sure there's plenty of moments where you guys have gone "what." at the hallucinomemories but bear with me for a sec here-

Anyone ever deal with something that when you looked it up just made barely any scrap of sense? Not even in the nonsense way, mind you. Like apparently I was called "Fafnir" in one of mine. As in (depending on where you take it from, shut up I had to look it up after finding out obviously) an asshole dragon or a giant. Either way, he gets smoked.

So running bet here is either:

1.) was the "other me" self-aware that he was a dick in some capacity?

or

2.) did he just pick the name out because it sounded cool?

Because if 1, then I can respect that; but if 2, then what the shit.

(David here just got his freebie regain in the form of remembering his mercenary codename, and in a sense of self-deprecation, I had to poke fun at myself for my choices. No regrets.)

Comments

[sivard]

No, allegedly they're our own memories?

Take that as you will, because I still think it sounds insane.

[negativism]

Well that does little to make me feel any better about it but I suppose it's better than carrying on with the illusion that it's not real.

[sivard]

I can't really blame anyone for doing that, if we're being honest here.

Between myself and a few people I supposedly knew, we're remembering a lot of messed up stuff.

[negativism]

Yeah. Not that I've known anything about it, but I know a friend or two have started remembering some not-so-pleasant things.

Hard to stay positive when that's going on, sometimes. I want to be optimistic but it's almost like waiting for the other shoe to drop, if that makes any sense.

[sivard]

It makes perfect sense to me, no worries there.

My personal thought is that even if we are, or were, those people we're remembering, we're not them now. No reason to try and pick up the pieces.

[negativism]

That's probably the best way to go about it. It's less who we were and more about what we'll do now with the knowledge of it.

Granted this is more me talking out of my ass to make sense of it, but I get where you're coming from.

[sivard]

I don't want to be someone who isn't me.

It's a pretty annoying dilemma, to be honest.

[negativism]

It is. On the bright side, at least we're not alone in it.

[sivard]

You're right.

We're all in this together, that's worth something.