so, about that death business

[doublesmall]

Hey, Retrospec.

I'll get right to the point here: as a few of you know, I died near the end of last year. Obviously it didn't stick, but I've been trying to figure out why-- and I think we've finally gotten somewhere on that point.

Full disclosure, some of this is edited, but you can't blame me for not wanting to plaster personal info all over this app, all right? I'm still giving you guys the important parts here. Skip the rest of this if you don't want to know.



So, first off- yeah, you can come back if you die, but try not to play too fast and loose with your life here. I didn't remember a damn thing about my memories or other life or whatever-it-is when I woke up again. They've been coming back, too, so if you want to get rid of your memories you're probably still out of luck.

[the first file chuuya attaches is an image of a computer screen, with a database displaying retrospec users and whether they're alive or dead. he's blurred individual names except his own, which has a 'restored' status; there's another blurred name with the same status in there too.]

After I died, apparently my body vanished, and the records of my death have been gone too; they turned back up in my file in this database, though.

[the second file uploaded is the coroner report from his death. this has parts blacked out to obscure personal details and basically just shows what kind of report it is, and that chuuya was in fact declared dead.

the third is a list that, again, has been edited to obscure information, so it's not immediately apparent what it's a list of. there's a percentage visible there, though, showing that chuuya was roughly 30% restored as of the time he saved this file.]

This is a list of all the shit I've remembered again since coming back-- and I guess everything that I haven't, I can't read the whole thing. Looks like they've been keeping track of how much I've gotten back, and how much I haven't; it's been kind of slow going, but I don't know if it's always that way or if it just varies.

The biggest thing, though, was this:

[there's one more file attached to the post, a report with the following information (copy-pasting from what I was given here)--

There's a separate report from the restoration department of Recollé that talks about the energy needed and precautions taken to balance the city and not cause an unnecessary temporal storm by restoring Chuuya. This report talks about how they lifted the body and virtually went in to stabilize/alter reality a little solely to slip Chuuya and his soul back into place before delivering him to the hospital. This is why people wake up after a few days from the dead and are not reported as dead after this point.

The report also talks about how revival includes short-term amnesia that directly effects the brain so that the newly revived remember people and the events by being on-network (world changes, etc.), but not previous restoration attempts (memories/powers/etc.) The brain is delicate, after all. It cites some of the work of Dr. J. Halliday who had done research on memory restoration and loss of memories. (Information that was found by team Yzma in August's plot.)]

There were a couple brain scans in there too, but I'm not posting that in public. If you're a doctor and you want to study them, though, I'll send you the files privately.

...so, there you go. That's everything we've managed to dig up. Do what you want with it, maybe it'll help figure some more shit out.

Comments

[goen]

[ ... this is all kind of beyond Yato so he's gonna cheat and ask ]

So what do you make of it boss

[doublesmall]

depends on what part of it you mean.

it's all still weird to think about, you know?

[judgementkazzy]

[ Yeah, a lot of that went over Kiryu's head but somebody came back from the dead ]

Holy shit.

[doublesmall]

yeah, that's been basically my take on the whole thing too.

being brought back at all is one thing, but messing with reality to do it? that's going pretty far.

[foeyay]

[Kamui is not a big reader, but it doesn't take much to draw him into this treasure trove. After seeing "I died," he's already sold. Though his first instinct is to shout FUCK YEAH to the heavens, he holds back long enough to breathe a few times before typing his response.]

you're seriously throwing out "don't try this at home" after an announcement like this? you've got guts, zombie man.

[doublesmall]

what part of all of this says "yeah, sounds like a great time" to you, huh?

it's not exactly a cakewalk, so no, you probably shouldn't try it

[adoringpast]

[ chuuya already told sena that he died like it's no big fucking deal but this is still a pretty big deal..... he's curious about one thing, though: ]

do you think the restoration is just a one-time thing or can they do this again on the off-chance that someone dies a second time

[doublesmall]

beats me. unless they decide to say something about it, we probably won't know unless someone does die twice.

all I know is I'd get annoyed if I had to keep trying to restore the same person

[okitactless]

so that's why you forgot...

[Since that's been bothering him since he found out, honestly (and also yasu isn't self-aware enough to realize what a dangerous influence this new information is having on him BUT ANYWAY)]

how are you feeling now??

[doublesmall]

knowing more about it helps, I guess?

but it's still weird as hell.

[parodeity]

i wonder if theres an upper limit to the times theyll bring us back

dont anyone go testing that now though

[doublesmall]

I was wondering the same thing, honestly

it could be a case of 'well we messed with reality once to bring your ass back, you get one'-- or it could be the kind of thing where they'll keep saving us if they can

I'd like to think it's the second, but I don't think I'd blame them for not wanting to do it too many times, either.

[evidentiary]

Have you noticed any pattern to how you have been getting the things you've remembered once more?

[doublesmall]

if there is one I can't say I've noticed it.

and I've gotten a couple that I don't remember knowing about before, so it doesn't seem like I needed to be 100% back to where I was for new ones to come up either

[matchbreaker]

Do you mind if I add this entry as a citation on the Retrospec guide? Obviously, you're being public with this, but it is sensitive.

[doublesmall]

nah, you're good. it's nothing they couldn't find on their own, so it's up to you whether you think newbies should know off the bat.

[fabrefactions]

[ ... Still stuck on the "so I died and came back to life" part, honestly. ]

... Does... this mean you're a zombie?

[ Asking the important questions 2k18. ]

[doublesmall]

sure does, I've been on a strict all-brains diet ever since.

in all seriousness though-- I don't know if I came back or if it's more like I both did and didn't die

the reality shit makes it complicated, I think.

[drydrown]

Well, this is simultaneously the most and least comforting thing I've ever seen. Consider it appreciated.

[doublesmall]

It's not the most comfortable stuff, but I know it's been mentioned that we can come back, so-- may as well make sure people have more information on it.

[ohrlyeh]

[This is....insane. Completely insane. And yet, after everything Howard has seen...]

so not even death can free us

are we in some kind of eternal hell

[doublesmall]

well that's morbid as hell, thanks for lifting the mood in here.

[thebeastwithout]

you what

[Gar is not big into Reading, but he scans through enough of what's written here to form a definite opinion.]

yo this is whack
what the hell

so are you like

a zombie

[doublesmall]

I might technically be a zombie, I guess? I'm definitely not undead, but I did come back, so.

[frostythehitman]

how did you get all this info
where did you take the pics

[doublesmall]

a retrospec database

does it really matter where exactly it was?

[lienhearts]

[Wow okay he'd discussed it in theory but not... this.]

So what you just wake up in the hospital or

[doublesmall]

just woke up in the hospital, yeah. they had to tell me about the death part after I was conscious.

[maskreant]

[ SINCE JAMES HAS ALREADY COVERED HIS BASES (he will stalk everything here), he won't repeat his question. ]

thanks for sharing with us. this is pretty important information.

have any idea what this means for people that don't have Retrospec? they die naturally, right?

[doublesmall]

I'd assume so, yeah

I don't know everyone on here, but the list in that database didn't seem like a whole city's worth of people

[eyestitch]

that other kid that died can't even tell us what happened after he came back

[She liked Ryoji; being as insensitive as possible seems like a good way to cover that up and avoid dealing with her own feelings.]

you find anything about other ppl being ""restored?"" or are you our lucky patient 0 right now

[doublesmall]

nobody but the two of us

I tried opening his file just to check and got an error, so all I know is what was in mine.

[concasse]

the fuck

so u died, came back, and now we're finding out Recollé played Frankenstein with ur soul?

[doublesmall]

yeah, something like that.

I think I've been doing fine since then so I'm pretty sure they didn't fuck me up doing it

[alienated]

[Yikes?? Everyone else has more or less covered what he wants to know, so—]

Sorry that happened to you. [bruh.]
You didn't remember dying, so what did you think you were in the hospital for? Or was it like going to sleep one night and waking up somewhere else completely?

[doublesmall]

the second one, basically

I thought it must have been an accident or something, you know? I didn't remember anything happening so I assumed I got knocked out

[sharplydressed]

[He doesn't have anything particularly intelligent to add or any hard-hitting questions to ask, so instead, Chuuya just gets a:]

thanks for sharing
even if the whole messing with reality thing is suspicious i'm glad they could bring you back

this stuff really does get weirder and weirder though

[doublesmall]

at least some of you are glad about that part

[yeah he may be a little sore.]

no end to the rabbit hole though, huh? at least we're figuring out more, even if we do just end up with more questions.

[windeity]

...that is some really heavy stuff.
thank you for sharing it.
what do you make of all of it though?
no offense or anything, but why bring people back at all?
it sounds like a long process on their end.

[doublesmall]

yeah. like, obviously I'm glad they bothered with it, but

if this is all some kind of experiment like some folks think, it's not like losing one would be a huge deal when there's so many more.

so they must have good reason to want us alive if they'll go to the trouble, right?

still think they may as well tell us everything and if there's consequences we'll just deal with them like we dealt with all of the shit a few months ago, but I at least don't think it's anything malicious, you know?

voice.

[erythristic]

[this is a straight up phone call, put her on speaker.]

You know, if you wanted your own death report, you could have asked me instead of using the coroner's.

[doublesmall]

I know, I know. I needed everything else though, you know?

[retrospec's end of it, more on what happened to get him back.]

[livingdeadgirl]

so um
do you remember what it was like?
dying i mean
or being dead
and then not being dead

[sure she could ask about this kind of thing from ghosts, if she really wanted to know, but... the living might bring a different perspective to it.]

[doublesmall]

sorry, but as far as I can tell it was just

pretty much like passing out, you know? I just woke up from it. no idea what it was like, if there even was anything to it.