02 ❀ it's almost february

[admiringly]

i know that a lot of crazy things happened in the city this month but can you believe valentine's day is in a little over two weeks?
do any of you have special plans? do you have someone you like? admire? have a crush on?
are you going to give your friends chocolate or cards?
are you lucky and dating someone that makes you so so happy?
if you're comfortable with it will you please tell me about them all?
tell me about the people in your life!
tell me about love!
tell me how love's changed things for you!
i want to hear about the good things that are happening in your life!

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[blessmefather]

[ She won't spread these replies to everyone right? ]

My friend thinks I should confess my feelings to the one I've been admiring. I don't know if I will. We might be better off as friends.

[admiringly]

[ cross her heart and hope to die! ]

they're your feelings and whether you confess should be up to you
but are you ok with just admiring?
do you think confessing would ruin the friendship?

[blessmefather]

[ He takes a deep breath when he receives her reply and leans back in his seat where he's sitting with his phone. Those are good questions, questions he has been tiptoeing around for a while now. Funny how he might have guessed he'd get a response like this and yet he said something any way. Maybe he wanted someone to ask him, force him to think about it. ]

I've been told by another friend that this person feels the same way I do. So it would seem I have no reason to worry about ruining our friendship.
It's been a long time since I have liked someone this much. You could say I'm out of practice. I went through a bad breakup a few years ago and I haven't dated much since then.
And if I do end up ruining this relationship I'd lose a person who has become immensely important to me. I guess a big part of why I'm holding back is because I hate to risk losing them by changing things. We're great as friends. So I keep telling myself that that's enough.

[admiringly]

it's hard to recover when you've been really hurt before
but i think if this person is that important to you and you are just as important to that person and a third person thinks that your important person feels the same way...
i think the risk is worth it
if you both feel the same way your friendship can only grow stronger and better
because love makes things better!
and i think if your friendship is already strong it should be strong enough to last if things get awkward

[ but Chiyo is eternally optimistic when it comes to love and romance ]

[blessmefather]

That's a nice way of thinking about it. Maybe I'm being too pessimistic.

I happened to end up with a memory that our Other Selves were friends but I did some things that really hurt them. I tell myself we're different people now but it's difficult not to worry that bad things will repeat or that those memories will affect our relationship as they return. Then again I really am being pessimistic aren't I?

I don't think taking this type of leap in a relationship has ever been this difficult for me before. All these excuses keep piling on because I'm hesitating.

Sorry, that was a lot coming from a stranger. I admire your optimism about this type of thing. I can't help wondering what someone with a more positive outlook would make of this situation.

[admiringly]

i made this post because i wanted to hear about what people were going through! stranger or not

i think your memories can help you? if you think you're different people then you are but if you know the other person will get those memories too you can ask that person if they want to hear about them first?
that way you can talk about it together and work through it that way?
are the memories that bad that it'll hurt to be open about them?

i don't think there's anything wrong in hesitating or waiting but i think maybe you're so afraid because you feel really strongly
and that's ok
you have time to figure out what you really want to do

[blessmefather]

I'm laughing. I hadn't considered purposely bringing up the memories to them to talk it out. That would be one way to get ahead of the problem and it would be better than wondering when they'll remember and how they'll react.
That's very reasonable now that I think about it. Thank you for pointing that out.

I should try to talk to them about the memories. Then I'll decide what to do about my feelings. If we can work through this I'll take it as a sign we could work as more than just friends.

[admiringly]

it's no problem! i know when a problem becomes so big in your mind it's hard to think about talking about it
but i hope your talk with them goes well and it works out!
i'm rooting for you!

[blessmefather]

Thank you for putting things in perspective. I appreciate it.