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bungou to alchemist: osamu dazai

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[ I mean she's still out in Magatus but there's a thought which has sort of lingered in the back of her mind for a while now and as such more to clear her mind from thoughts of wolves and the thoughts of her own son (including of all things puns, why??? she's going to put out vaguepost in the form of: ]

So does anyone else have children in the memories they've been getting?

To answer my own question the woman I am in my memories has a son and then her son has three children as well.

[ So this tbh pretty young looking 41 year old is a grandmother in her memories but that's beside the point. ]

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[ Mmmm, at least it's different than Albert's take. ]

Yeah, it's a manor.

But good, I mean... no, I can't blame you for that, no.

it just makes me want to refuse to go the way he did or pursue his goals. that would be his karma too, wouldn't it? to have his future reincarnation spit in the face of what he wanted.

even without that, i want to prove none of us have to be forced into anything because of whatever our past selves did. maybe we can't control what we remember or the physical changes, but the choice of what to do with them is ours.

[And that's why everything about Retrospec pisses him off—the lack of choice. He wants to be in control of his own life.]

Yeah, precisely! There's nothing which can make us *entirely* those people we supposedly are. A soul isn't a blueprint, or at least not one which determines everything. I'm sure of it.

even if retrospec were capable of it, they'd regret it with me. i doubt he was the grateful type. or that he'd be reformed enough not to kill whoever got in his way.

[What do you mean it's unsettling to think about your current self being erased and that you'd turn into a mass murderer.]

[ She presses her lips together and then opens them again, ]

I imagine that's true of a number of people, really.

it wouldn't surprise me, given the company's clear lack of common sense.

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[ At the same time though, if they hadn't grabbed the soul... does that mean that he wouldn't exist? It's a weird question. ]

They do seem to go sort of half cocked all the time.

that's putting it lightly.

by the way, do you remember what her name was?

[It may seem like a random question, but something he's just recalled is making him think.]

The same as mine, Elda Marker.

Why, is yours not named Ben or Ren Solo?

i hadn't gotten any indication until now. ben didn't seem like it fit him, but i suppose he might have changed it like i did.

[...It's not like the fact that he changed his name isn't obvious anyway, and whatever might follow that old name here... well, if nothing can come through to the city, it's not like anything can catch up to him.]

i just remembered him muttering a name. the last name was solo, so i assume it was family. it's the first i've remembered of anything related to them.

What's wrong with the name Ben?

he wore all black with this on his head, had a red laser sword, and could move people with his mind. ben seems a little plain for all that.

... Point, point.
Like you'd pick a new name for history to call you

exactly. it isn't exactly a name that would strike fear in the hearts of his enemies, either, and i'm sure he was the type to make himself as intimidating as possible.

Could be a last name only thing? If it was still Solo that might work

i suppose. though i wonder how long it will take me to actually find out, since it's taken this long to come up.

it's strange to think that we'd have the same names. i'd prefer that we didn't, if just to make it easier to separate.

For better or worse most people I know have the same name between both, I think. Or mostly the same name? I know I did, so I didn't even think other people wouldn't until later.

your past self lived on some version of earth, so it makes more sense for you. someone from who knows where in space using the same name is different.

not that any of it makes sense, but i guess that's why i wasn't expecting it.

Putting it that way, it's almost weird that ...

Well, no, I guess you wouldn't know the language.

you can't just trail off like that and not explain what you mean.

Well I was thinking about understanding the memories, but I understood all the ones which must've been in Japanese before I could speak Japanese. So that's not an issue.

i hadn't thought about that part of it. it wouldn't make much sense for everyone to speak english in wherever they were in space, though i've been understanding it like it was.

i suppose knowing what was said is a part of the memories, whether we would know the languages or not.

[ This sentence is re-typed three times, once in English, then French, then Jaapnese. ]

Maybe you'll eventually get an understanding of the language, who knows?

<< Maybe you'll eventually get an understanding of the language, who knows? >>

< Maybe you'll eventually get an understanding of the language, who knows? >

oh yes, learning space english. that will be just as useful as actual languages on earth, i'm sure.

knowing my luck it's probably in letters they don't even have on computers.

If it helps, I know a programmer who could help with that.

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