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[matchbreaker]

[ I mean she's still out in Magatus but there's a thought which has sort of lingered in the back of her mind for a while now and as such more to clear her mind from thoughts of wolves and the thoughts of her own son (including of all things puns, why??? she's going to put out vaguepost in the form of: ]

So does anyone else have children in the memories they've been getting?

To answer my own question the woman I am in my memories has a son and then her son has three children as well.

[ So this tbh pretty young looking 41 year old is a grandmother in her memories but that's beside the point. ]

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[matchbreaker]

Well I can assure that I don't have surprise space travel unless she lived long enough for that to happen. She didn't even know what a television was when she saw one the first time. I put my hand through the thing.

But no, that's a spooky idea, isn't it?

What's so special about one or another soul to bring back a world or in this case a whole bunch of them? Not that you or I isn't important as an individual, but put next to billions of people?

It seems a little too big, in a way.

[lostapprentice]

that far back? did she happen to live in a castle? it would fit the atmosphere of what i know of her.

i can't imagine being responsible for that many people. not a planet's worth, and definitely not all of space. not to mention the person in my memories was more likely to end lives, not save them.

but maybe if it's true, all of this is karma for him. i just wish i didn't have to get dragged into it.

[matchbreaker]

Mmm no, I'm not sure when she was born? But I know she was in her 20s and lived in a stately manor at the time. They moved to Japan and got a smaller manor there and lived there for two hundred years? I'm not sure which time period either was those other than she was born before the 1850s I'm pretty sure. Probably in the 1700s or before.

Don't think of it like karma. Or at least, try not to.

[ Alber...t... ]

Or if you must, keep that in mind that it's not the current yours.

[lostapprentice]

a manor. not as grand but still appropriate.

[Vampires always get the cool stuff. According to fiction, anyway.]

i know it's not mine. i'm not innocent, but i haven't done anything close to what he did. still, it's difficult not to blame him for some of what's happened to me.

[matchbreaker]

[ Mmmm, at least it's different than Albert's take. ]

Yeah, it's a manor.

But good, I mean... no, I can't blame you for that, no.

[lostapprentice]

it just makes me want to refuse to go the way he did or pursue his goals. that would be his karma too, wouldn't it? to have his future reincarnation spit in the face of what he wanted.

even without that, i want to prove none of us have to be forced into anything because of whatever our past selves did. maybe we can't control what we remember or the physical changes, but the choice of what to do with them is ours.

[And that's why everything about Retrospec pisses him off—the lack of choice. He wants to be in control of his own life.]

[matchbreaker]

Yeah, precisely! There's nothing which can make us *entirely* those people we supposedly are. A soul isn't a blueprint, or at least not one which determines everything. I'm sure of it.

[lostapprentice]

even if retrospec were capable of it, they'd regret it with me. i doubt he was the grateful type. or that he'd be reformed enough not to kill whoever got in his way.

[What do you mean it's unsettling to think about your current self being erased and that you'd turn into a mass murderer.]

[matchbreaker]

[ She presses her lips together and then opens them again, ]

I imagine that's true of a number of people, really.

[lostapprentice]

it wouldn't surprise me, given the company's clear lack of common sense.

[matchbreaker]

[ At the same time though, if they hadn't grabbed the soul... does that mean that he wouldn't exist? It's a weird question. ]

They do seem to go sort of half cocked all the time.

[lostapprentice]

that's putting it lightly.

by the way, do you remember what her name was?

[It may seem like a random question, but something he's just recalled is making him think.]

[matchbreaker]

The same as mine, Elda Marker.

Why, is yours not named Ben or Ren Solo?

[lostapprentice]

i hadn't gotten any indication until now. ben didn't seem like it fit him, but i suppose he might have changed it like i did.

[...It's not like the fact that he changed his name isn't obvious anyway, and whatever might follow that old name here... well, if nothing can come through to the city, it's not like anything can catch up to him.]

i just remembered him muttering a name. the last name was solo, so i assume it was family. it's the first i've remembered of anything related to them.

[matchbreaker]

What's wrong with the name Ben?

[lostapprentice]

he wore all black with this on his head, had a red laser sword, and could move people with his mind. ben seems a little plain for all that.

[matchbreaker]

... Point, point.
Like you'd pick a new name for history to call you

[lostapprentice]

exactly. it isn't exactly a name that would strike fear in the hearts of his enemies, either, and i'm sure he was the type to make himself as intimidating as possible.

[matchbreaker]

Could be a last name only thing? If it was still Solo that might work

[lostapprentice]

i suppose. though i wonder how long it will take me to actually find out, since it's taken this long to come up.

it's strange to think that we'd have the same names. i'd prefer that we didn't, if just to make it easier to separate.

[matchbreaker]

For better or worse most people I know have the same name between both, I think. Or mostly the same name? I know I did, so I didn't even think other people wouldn't until later.

[lostapprentice]

your past self lived on some version of earth, so it makes more sense for you. someone from who knows where in space using the same name is different.

not that any of it makes sense, but i guess that's why i wasn't expecting it.

[matchbreaker]

Putting it that way, it's almost weird that ...

Well, no, I guess you wouldn't know the language.

[lostapprentice]

you can't just trail off like that and not explain what you mean.

[matchbreaker]

Well I was thinking about understanding the memories, but I understood all the ones which must've been in Japanese before I could speak Japanese. So that's not an issue.