creeping while you're sleeping

[playdolls]

Pitou Blythe shared a photo. March 4th, 20XX near RECOLLE

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[playdolls]

It's what creeps say when they're being coy.

[livingimpaired]

You should stop talking to creeps.
They give good people a bad name.

[playdolls]

I think 'good people' give themselves a bad name.

[livingimpaired]

Oh.
I'm not the good person.
I am definitely a creep.

[2/2]

[livingimpaired]

But either way, the phrase: beauty is in the eye of the beholder, is a nice one.
Don't let me and others ruin it.

[playdolls]

Oh, it doesn't bother me. I'm a creep. I use to say a freak, but I have enough memories to know I was never human to start with, so that would be an incorrect descriptor for my traits.

[livingimpaired]

It is nice to meet a fellow creep.
However, I don't necessarily like sounding like one.
Best to keep that to oneself.

But still, even if you were never human in your memories, you're human now, aren't you?

[playdolls]

To certain specifications, my internal systems are still human. My tail and ears make me look like a cat, which I am also not.

[livingimpaired]

No.
I don't mean your physical body.
You may be an oddity, but you were born human.
You came to be part of this society.
You're still part of the people, even if you create works that may be considered disturbing.
You've not yet been dismissed from the human race, Pitou Blythe.

[playdolls]

I don't have any proof of that, and neither do you. I remember my queen and my hive, and I remember being born to that. I'm waiting for a human who can say the same.

Did you wake up in the womb and share your mother's mind?

Maybe I don't want to be lumped in with your inferior species.

[livingimpaired]

I'm afraid I didn't.
But I still know myself to be human.
An odd human, to be certain, but I am one.

If you didn't want it, you wouldn't be attempting to connect with us.

[playdolls]

[ Hissssssssss. ]

Does it look like I'm trying to connect? Or does it look like I want to take you apart and sew all your pieces back together in a different order.

[livingimpaired]

It looks like you're trying to connect.
But you're too afraid of what will come next if you do.
Because they may be incapable of accepting who you are.
So it's easier to be a creep and inhuman.
Easier, but not better.

[playdolls]

I don't need to be accepted. You can all be remade into whatever I want.

[ WHY WOULD ADMIT THAT OUT LOUD. ]

You're just meat and strings.

[livingimpaired]

Maybe not, but I accept you, Pitou Blythe.
In this small conversation, I accept you.

And so I may be but meat and strings, but I still accept you as you are and as you will come to be.

[playdolls]

[ RCTYVUBINBUVTYCRYTVUYBIUNOFE ]

No one asked you to!

[livingimpaired]

And no one needs to.
You need not ever worry.
I will always accept every part of you.
Consider it the second portion of my payment.

[playdolls]

No, no, no! You can keep all of it! Someone put you up to this.

[livingimpaired]

No one put me up to this.
I'm doing this of my own free will.

[playdolls]

No, it's Shuji getting back at me for trashing his book,
isn't it! I let him insult my shit, it's all even!

[livingimpaired]

Do you really think Shuji has that sort of cruelty in him?
You know the answer is that he does not.
I am merely an odd person.
An odd person that has chosen to accept you.
You who says who does not need it, but is terrified of it.
Indeed, you need it more than others.

[playdolls]

If that's true, it's just to push your own narrative that you think I'm some sensitive waif who needs you. Why wouldn't that annoy me?

[livingimpaired]

When did I say you were a sensitive waif?
I do believe I called you an odd one, too, yes?

[playdolls]

What, I'm supposed to think you respect me while simultaneously telling me I need acceptance?

[livingimpaired]

Yes.