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[doesntdiscriminate]

I'm in need of advise.

I've had a memory of someone here in the city, who I believe is also on Retrospec, and I'm not quite sure what to do about it. Mostly because I don't really know them... at least not in this lifetime. We only met once and the circumstances were, to put it mildly, pretty odd.

Now I'm assuming (and please don't make the joke, it's one of my father's favorites and it gets old real fast) that I'm not the first person this has happened to, and so I was hoping someone here might have some useful advise for me.

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[spes_phthisica]

mm I haven't actually experienced this, but I've thought about it a lot
because there is someone in my memories who I wouldn't know how to react to at all if he ever appeared here

the closest I get to actually experiencing it is knowing I used to own my friends
...well sort of

[doesntdiscriminate]

How so? If you don't mind me asking.
I haven't really experienced enough memories of anyone specific to have any feelings one way or the other yet, except for a kind of general awkwardness.

Um... you - sort of - owned your friends? Sorry, but you gonna have to elaborate a bit on that.

[spes_phthisica]

well, I guess it’s kind of the opposite of your situation
I already know from my memories that I had some really REALLY intense feelings about this guy
but here and now... I don’t know him
it’s weird

oh it was because they used to be swords
like in their previous lives or whatever, they were swords before they became people

[doesntdiscriminate]

Yeah, I can see how that might get a bit complicated. To put it mildly.

When you say swords are we talking actual swords, as in long metal things with sharp edges, or something a bit more metaphorical?

[spes_phthisica]

we’re all in a pretty complicated and awkward situation ^^;;;

I mean like actual swords yep
somehow they used to be swords and then became some kind of spirits connected to swords

[doesntdiscriminate]

You have a gift for understatement I think. ;)

Wow. That's... wow.
I'm torn between wanting to ask a million questions about it and needing, like, a week or two and quite a bit of alcohol just to wrap my head around it.

So I'm guessing you're some kind of swordsman, or knight, in your memories?

[spes_phthisica]

better than not being gifted at all, right? ;)

It took me kind of like that too, even though I don’t even drink
but yes, I was something like that... a samurai, specifically
I belonged to an apparently famous military unit during the 19th century

[doesntdiscriminate]

Oh, absolutely. Puts you way ahead of the rest of the rabble, no question!

I can imagine. I mean, it must have been even more weird for you than it is for me.
That's cool! At least theoretically, if you know what I mean. ^^
You must be/have been pretty good at it.
I have to admit I don't know very much about the samurai, and I'm kinda doubtful about the accuracy of most of what I do know.
Are we talking our 19th century?

[spes_phthisica]

mmyep... and what's worse is that I've even gotten the sword that sort of used to be one of my friends. and so has he. AND possibly another person too? so it's possible there's three of the dang things around now.
mine's broken, though...

as in our 19th century, yep
apparently I'm part of history ρ(´-＿-｀●)

[doesntdiscriminate]

You have the sword your friend kind of used to be and it's broken? Ouch.
Suddenly my life doesn't seem so complicated anymore.

...Wow! That's a lot to live up to.
So if you're part of our history and he used to be your sword and then became a spirit...
Does that mean spirits and ghosts and whatnots have always been real?

[spes_phthisica]

it really scared me when I got it, because the sword he has is connected to him somehow. I thought he'd gotten hurt!
and well, just wait. your life will probably get more complicated too :P

"the famous captain and swordsman of the Shinsengumi" mm it's not really me, you know
and I honestly don't know
my parents are kind of casually Shintoist, but this is all kind of... way over my head tbh

[doesntdiscriminate]

Oh. Yeah that must have been terrifying. I take it he was alright though?
I think we might have discovered another gift. You're wonderfully reassuring as well!

It's definitely a mouthful.
Then again, if you've already been a strong and powerful swordsman in a past life there's really no need to do it again this time around, is there? Unless you really want to.
My parents are kind of christian and that hasn't really stuck either.
And while I've had fun imagining it I've never really believed in anything supernatural, holy or otherwise.
...Until about two months ago that is.

[spes_phthisica]

it was! but since it wasn’t his sword, he was fine
haha I’m usually a bit better ^^;;; but it’s been a rough time

I hope so. I’m trying to become a social worker so I don’t have time :P
it’s not exactly that I don’t believe in it, it’s just that it hasn’t been part of my life much, you know?
and sword spirits and child sized monsters have not ever been something I had to consider before
but now I guess anything is possible, yes

[doesntdiscriminate]

I'm glad to hear it.
I don't mind it. Gallows humor have been a very consistent part of my upbringing. ;)

Social worker by day, sword wielding warrior for justice by night.
It has a definite super hero vibe to it. With a bit of a twist. ^^
Yeah. I'm more of an unbeliever, but I think I get what you're saying.
Not sure if being more involved in religion would have prepared you for that either tbh.
Horror movies will never be the same. y( ꒪◊꒪)y

[spes_phthisica]

I’m usually more optimistic, but I think I’m allowed to be a little tired by now
and at least it’s better to be laughing than crying, as you say

not very likely (；´∀｀) I’m too squeamish about blood to be a good vigilante
[Also his lungs are too fucked, but he’d rather not think about that.]
I imagine not much would prepare me
honestly though the stuff that wasn’t supernatural has been a lot harder to get over
there’s a lot of violence