Okita Souji (
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Soujirou Katsuki
4/30 near Tribunal Terrace
you know, normally I'd probably come up with some kind of excuse for why I've been kind of reclusive and like
nowadays, basically ANYTHING would sound plausible, right?
"I got back memories suggesting I was a serial killer and I've been avoiding people for the public good"
or
"I've become possessed with the spirit of a hermit"
or
"I now have the power to turn people into pudding with my eyes"
btw if this has happened to anyone, I'm sorry I was just really insensitive (ㄒoㄒ)
but I guess the truth is that my health took a huge dip and I've been in and out of hospital for a bit
and I don't like talking about that much at all but
yeah
they're considering a lung transplant if I can get my health better so I guess hit me with all the classic social media health tips?
not kombucha tho I would rather die thanks y(^ー^)y
also I'm so incredibly bored, please send cat vids or something
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But then, I'm terrible at offering people my condolences.
[...There's a huge pause before another is sent.]
Sympathies. It's sympathies when people are still alive, isn't it.
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startled the nurse a bit, but that's what they get for walking on eggshells
and I mean I have memories of being a fearsome warrior, so I guess it's not too far from the serial killer :P
but I think I prefer them to how boring hospitals are too
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I can send you a picture of my cat if you want, but in the meantime - and in the interest of entertainment - what sort of warrior were you?
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not many pets in hospitals
samurai. apparently one that is quite historically famous ( ◜◡‾)
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is it one of those worlds full of magic and monsters and things like that?
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then again some things kind of sound like horror
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So take that as you will, I suppose.
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I’ve seen someone receive a memory like that and it did not look like a nurturing experience
I’m not looking forward to it at all
then again I’ve remembered killing people too and that wasn’t much fun either ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
have you remembered anything like that? since you mentioned swordsmanship I mean
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those kind of memories are hard to deal with
was it actual murder you were trying or was it more a battle kind of thing?
I mean not that there's a huge difference, I guess
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well the ones I have aren’t up to much, and there’s not really any way of fixing them
so... yeah
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pretty heavy, im so sorry
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it's why I usually don't ( ´∀`)
but it's not like I can probably keep it hidden much longer and I don't want to worry people so
anyway I'm not dead yet, right?
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black dressed weeping people following me about (^◇^;)
pretty depressing too.
besides I've already decided that I'm going to at least finish my studies and get a job. I've worked too hard to just die before that.
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I had a bone marrow transplant there over a decade ago, and I'm still here now, so.
[ ...anyway here's a brief video of his beautiful queen staring into the kitchen sink with grave alarm after the garbage disposal is turned on for half a second. ]
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also I realize that's pretty long ago and the procedures are wildly different but... do you remember how you felt before the treatment?
if it's not weird to ask
also not to be weird but I think I would take a bullet for your cat (ᗒᗨᗕ)
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[ hm. he's never really talked about this, or even thought too hard on it, so he doesn't have an immediate answer. ]
I don't know, I was a kid with no friends who hadn't done much. I didn't have much of a life, so I don't think I cared that much about how it turned out, as long as I didn't have to keep feeling like shit all the time. I was more scared of suffering through possible complications than of dying.
[ ...this really is an awkward conversation shift, but he brought it on himself. ]
I'm sure she'll be flattered to hear that. :)