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wow it's been a while since i made a post here
and i've been on this app for a year now, actually
feels like yesterday when we were all shrunk into the size of ants or something

but speaking of my one-year loyalty award in this shitter
i've remembered a lot of things since then and the weirdest thing i've noticed is that
all of my memories so far happened in high school
and it's weird because you'd think we'd get memories of anything beyond that or even before that
but no, it's always that one phase in everyone's life

so my question is: has anyone here remembered more than one phase of their life so far?
like their childhood? or maybe their adult years or whatever?
you don't have to tell me your life story if you don't want to but there's got to be someone out there who actually remembered more than that

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[ OUR WORLD DOESN'T SOUND BAD, MY ASS ]

that's one way of putting it, yeah
we wouldn't know this person would've made it out of that world if it weren't for retrospec confirming their existence
but i agree
i wouldn't want to remember any more of that post-apocalyptic crap

[LISTEN, HE DOESN'T KNOW! But it does take him a good minute or so to send his next message.]

This might be too personal, but do you have anyone important in your memories? Someone that you feel strongly toward even though they've never been on Retrospec?

Even though I've never actually met him, I don't want to think about that happening to the person I've had so many memories about. Maybe I shouldn't feel that way.

[ this takes him a while too, as he carefully chooses his words. just going to make this private from here on out, though. ]

yes, i do
even before he came on the app actually
we got off the wrong foot bc my memories about him weren't so good

but no, i think it's okay for you to think like that
for all you know, he might be in this city with a different name, different hair... maybe you'd talked to him before and you wouldn't have realized it

Edited 2018-05-16 02:59 (UTC)

So you understand it too... I'm sure it was much different for you, if you had that many negative memories, but you understand. For me, it's... difficult.

[The conversation is private now.... So even if he doesn't know Sena that well, it doesn't feel like he has to hide it. Not when they're being open with each other to at least some extent.]

My other self had feelings for him, so my memories usually carry that across, if that makes sense. I may not be in love with him, but there's a part of me that still cares a lot about him... so I keep having worries like this.

But you're right, there's always a possibility. I'm not sure if I was as important to him as he was to me, but I'm similar to my memory self, so I hope he'd mention it if he had memories and ever saw me.

Sorry, this got heavier than I expected. I... haven't talked to many people about it.

[ oh, this topic. well, since it's private anyway, and kouhei doesn't seem like the type to blab... still though, sena's got to be cautious. ]

the thing is that
my other self had someone who he had feelings for too
he's currently on the app and but i was there before him and we got off the wrong foot at first bc of how i reacted to my memories about him
i like to think that we're okay now though

[ uh huh ]

but im sure that
if you'd treated that guy of yours well in your memories
he might also feel the same way when he does appear on the app and start remembering

feelings do change though
you might not feel the same way towards the guy now or at least not that strongly as you did in your memories

[Ah.... There's a chance he's reading too deeply into this, but given that Sena's not only talking about someone he had feelings for in his memories, but someone that he had trouble with as a result....

Kouhei isn't going to state it so plainly, of course, but he's pretty sure he knows exactly who Sena's talking about.]

I see. So even though you loved him in your memories, it was difficult to deal with here. Is it because you're both different from your memory selves, or something else?

I... I'm not sure. He meant so much to me that almost all of my memories are about him. I know he cared about me, but I'm not sure how much. He didn't ever push me away.

What does it feel like? To run into someone from your memories.

complicated
i was one of the few people from that world who'd gotten the app first, so i'll need to orient them into what's going on with this app, the stuff that's been going on in our memories
it's thankless work but i would've appreciated it too if somewhere were to tell me about retrospec's shit so i may as well fill them in on those details

my feelings for that guy was just as convoluted though
it was more than obvious that i loved him way too much that it's
sickening
but for some reason i don't feel like that towards him anymore
well, almost
he's still pretty cute, i'd have to admit
i guess i'll always be a sucker for eyes like those ♪

[ OOOOOOKAY shutting up now ]

but if he's like that then im sure he'd feel the same way about you
do you remember his name? what he looks like up close?

Edited 2018-05-19 08:26 (UTC)

Even if it feels thankless, I'm sure everyone appreciated it, whether they said so or not.

So that's how it is... I'm glad you're able to have a normal relationship now, and that you've come to terms with the way things played out.

...And don't worry, I won't tell him. Your secret's safe with me.

[He couldn't help himself.... But truly, given that they'd seemed to have a pretty rocky relationship at one point, Kouhei's happy that everything sounds like it's worked out.]

His name is Taichi Sagawa. He was expressive in everything that he did, and was always genuine and charged ahead without thinking. I actually got a phone from my memory self a while back... so I can show you the pictures.

[And true to his word, he attaches a selfie of them and a second picture of Taichi. Of course, Kouhei wasn't kidding - he looks identical to the way he does in the picture that shows his own face, so much so that it's impossible to tell it isn't just him and a friend in Recolle.]

[ good, it should stay that way, as far as makoto is concerned. sena's still pretty torn about that one memory he had about being on that lonesome runway and the heavy feeling of remorse on his shoulders. he'll do whatever it takes not to hurt him anymore.

but enough about that, let's talk about other boys! the boy in the selfies kouhei just sent him is admittedly cute, but that's it. ]

hm, not bad
kind of reminds me of a lot of guys i know here
his name doesn't ring a bell though so i wouldn't know if he's in this city or not

Thanks, even that much helps.

By reminding you of other people, you mean his personality? Even I know a few people like that, but Taichi was definitely... unique, from everything I remember. I don't have any memories of it yet, but even though he probably rejected me, I hope he didn't hate me afterwards.

[The second he sends that message, however, Kouhei's already regretting it. Why is he suddenly rattling off about himself?! He's never done this. Talking about himself is rare enough, but talking about this without being prompted is enough to shake him into momentary silence.]

...Sorry, I don't know what came over me. I've never really gotten the chance to talk about this before, so... I wasn't thinking.

[ this guy is being too overly trusting... not that it's unwelcomed since sena's kept other people's secrets too, but this one came out of left field and it isn't like they're close friends or anything

right? ]

you shouldn't jump to conclusions yet
why would you think that he'd already rejected you from a bunch of disconnected memories?
and even if he did, would he really hate you? do you think he's that kind of person?
if he was, then why bother liking him at all?

[Out of absolutely nowhere, it takes him a solid five minutes to respond.]

...I just remembered.

He isn't. He isn't like that at all. He was kinder than anyone.

Thanks, Sena. Really. Thank you.

[ OH, UH. HM. didn't expect that at all, omg ]

yeah uh
no problem
hope you found what you were looking for

I know this got awkward, so I'll make it up to you later. Talk to you then.

Sorry, one more thing. Send me your favorite food when you get a chance. I figured you'd have diet restrictions.

Thanks.

[ THAT'S. UM. ]

mm
i'll let you know later

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