005 ★ a few serious questions

[promisedyou]

[Mio's been left alone with her thoughts for a very long while and she can't help but feel avidly curious about a few things. She needs to confirm them, just to be safe.]

Hey, Retrospec.

I didn't get the chance to ask these questions since I didn't find out until recently, and I'm not exactly sure if I'm correct or not, but there's definitely a few things I want to ask. I need to be absolutely certain.

Can someone on the application change? Not changes as in memories or regaining their past lives, but rather... Can their memories and histories of their lives in Recolle change altogether? Can memories of someone who a person used to be close to be altered into something different?

Also, a follow up question. Has anyone been having weird dreams lately? Of people being in their dreams that usually aren't? I know it was just yesterday for me, but my dreams before that have been rather distinct and difficult to just simply forget, so I want to know if it's just me or not.

And if you're not interested in either of those questions... I already asked for cute things last time, so I'll ask this: tell me something funny you've experienced or seen recently. It can be anything.

Comments

[dulynoted]

Theoretically anything is possible where Retrospec is concerned. But I have a feeling you're bringing this up because you think it's happened.

[promisedyou]

Yes, but I want to know if there's some sort of past experience with it or something.

But yes, that's exactly why I brought it up.

[dulynoted]

Unless you count those who are no longer on Retrospec and consequently don't remember any of it, I haven't seen evidence of that, no.

[promisedyou]

I see.

And no, I don't count that.

[dulynoted]

A friend of yours?

[promisedyou]

Family.

[dulynoted]

I'm sorry to hear that. Do they remember you?

[promisedyou]

I don't know.

I'm too afraid to find out. I just found out from someone else that we're not siblings and that person isn't the type to lie...

[dulynoted]

[ ...Hm. ]

And this has all happened around the same time?

[promisedyou]

The dreams happened yesterday, [on the 3rd] but learning about sis happened on the first.

[dulynoted]

So around the same time. And things around here do tend to go haywire at the beginning of the month.

[promisedyou]

Yeah.

And given what the Retrospec post was about... it's not like my concern is unfounded.

[dulynoted]

You're likely not the only one, but I don't see anyone else speaking up.

I'll try to be cognizant of this in my interactions too.

[promisedyou]

I sure hope I'm not the only one. I'd be terrified if I'm the only one who noticed...

[dulynoted]

You may just be the first in a series of uncomfortable reveals.

[quiet_storm]

Yes, yes, yes, and yes.

Not just memories of my time in Recolle either.
Whole life histories.
I was born in a different country last year than I was this year.
Different family, different university, different driver's license, the whole bit.

Then it happened to a friend of mine.
One day he's ex-military working in a car repair place
The next day he's five years younger, has no idea who I am, and has had his own woodworking business for a couple of years.

[promisedyou]

Good. So I'm not just simply imagining things, at least.

[quiet_storm]

Did you lose somebody important?

[promisedyou]

Yeah.

At least, I'm pretty sure I did.

[frostythehitman]

even if someone did change like that
how would any of us even know it

[promisedyou]

I don't know.

But I'm not just asking out of idle curiosity. I'm asking because I noticed that it might have happened to someone I know.

[frostythehitman]

[ oh shit. he hopes she doesn't mean him--is he supposed to know her? ]

who
what happened

[promisedyou]

A family member.

Someone told me that we weren't related and I thought that was strange, because I definitely remember us being related.

[frostythehitman]

what if it's you who isn't remembering things right

[promisedyou]

I don't think I am, but I did mention her as my twin sister in other various Retrospec posts and double checked those. Not to mention that I keep a journal in the off chance that my memories get messed with to begin with.

[frostythehitman]

and how do you know those things weren't altered just like your memories could've been

[promisedyou]

Because I left them in the hands of someone I trust.

Besides, for what reason would they tamper with my memories to think that I had a twin sister that was on Retrospec and is now not my twin sister that still is on Retrospec?

[frostythehitman]

i don't know
for what reason would they tamper with your sister's memories
everything you're saying or asking could get flipped right around and the questions would be just the same
are you really sure you know what the truth actually is?

[promisedyou]

Maybe it can.

I don't know why they would tamper with her memories. Even though I was expecting this happening, considering the post they made. In fact, it might not be Retrospec doing this, but rather, whatever group is trying to go up against them. But I'm sure I'm right. I even checked through all the old Retrospec posts, too.

The person who said that she wasn't my sister said she was my sister in the older posts.

So I'm certain. I'll confirm it as many times as I want to make sure that I have the truth. I won't run away from it. If I'm the one who's wrong, I'll admit it, but in this case, with so much evidence towards what I'm thinking... there's no way I'm wrong.

[truedetective]

If we accept that we can have memories of a life not our own (at least, not the one we live here), I think we should also accept that our memories of the life we lived here may also be suspect.

That's not to say that they necessarily are, just that the opportunity does present itself.
So... perhaps? I don't see why not.

[promisedyou]

I've thought about it for a while. That our memories of anything of our lives might be fake. But I'm worried that 'our lives' here - those memories can be tampered.

I wasn't really asking about whether the memories are fake or not, but rather if someone's memories of someone who lived here can change into a different memory of another life that they lived here.

But I want to hope that isn't the case, though.

[truedetective]

I understood what you were asking. I would still express the same view. If we accept that memories are mutable-- that is, we can get "new" ones-- there's no reason I can think of that even our "real" memories can't be overwritten with "new" real memories. It's not a pleasant thought, but I can't realistically think of any way around it.

[promisedyou]

That definitely makes sense.

It makes me uncomfortable, to say the least. Like, if our lives in this world aren't real... prior to the application, who's to say that our feelings from back then aren't, either?

[truedetective]

To be perfectly blunt, there's nothing that says that.
It could be fabricated from start to finish.

I think the meaning these things have is that which we give it.

[promisedyou]

Unfortunately... I honestly hope we get answers. I want to know the truth.

[truedetective]

As do I.
I've never wanted to learn anything else more desperately.

I think it's in all our best interests to be ready for whatever that truth happens to be.

[promisedyou]

Yeah.

Especially since whatever that truth is... I doubt it'll be a nice one.