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[admiringly]

[ Alpha#03012858 ]

hi!!
i'm still getting used to this phone
(i really miss my actual phone it has to to super dead by now don't you think?)
i wanted to invite all of you to talk about the people who used to be on the app but aren't anymore
i feel like the more i think about the people i miss the less they seem to be missing
does that make sense?

it may be a little sad but i think talking about them will help
what do you love about the people you miss?
what do you wish you could tell them?
what was one of your favorite things you did with them?
is there a habit they had that you picked up?
who do you wish would get retrospec back
who are you glad doesn't have retrospec anymore
anything really!

let's talk about everyone so they don't disappear into this
whatever this digital world? video game world? we're in

Comments

ALPHA#07011227

[invocate]

i really miss noah. we didn't meet until after i got the app, so he doesn't remember me anymore.

is it selfish of me to want him to get the app back? probably. but i want him to come back. i want to believe that he will.

past-me once told someone that when she loses someone in her life, it's like a piece of her world disappears. i feel like i understand that now.

every time one of my friends goes off the app, my world feels a little smaller.

[admiringly]

i don't think it's wrong to want to get a friend back
it's not often people off the app can know of the retrospec world
but i think if you believe they'll come back
if you have hope
you can keep your world open
and it can grow bigger again

[heiroglyphs]

Victoria Nichols and Dante Rantanen.
The two of them mean the world to me.
They taught me that I don't have to be alone in this world, and I should never be embarrassed about being myself.
I love them both with all my heart.
And neither of them remember a thing about me anymore.

[invocate]

i think i can do that
i can have hope
he'll come back. he'll definitely come back.
i don't want to sound like i have nobody left
because there are still so many people on the app who are important to me
i just miss so many people

[me_matey]

majima. 100%

it just aint right without that dude around ya feel me? mostly i still need him to teach me to play mahjong.

[thesettingsun]

[Long comments are difficult on this phone.

Shuji mentions everyone he can think of.]

Mista had me watch Pretty Woman once and then we talked about it afterwards, very seriously, for two hours straight.

John and I once traded stupid pickup-lines with the worst puns you can think of.

Odasaku never really believed me that he wasn't a bother to the people he cared about. If there's anyone I would like to bring happiness to, it's him.

Koutarou, for a long time, was the only other person whose past life and mine came from the same place, and in a way that was a reassurance to me. Someone else went through the same changes I did, and we could commiserate.

Atsushi is the most goddamn adorable tiger you have seen in your life.

Heigo and I are similar people, in a lot of ways. He offered to listen to my problems even when he'd just gotten the app and hadn't had the chance to get adjusted to most of it, and I was grateful.

Fai was my therapist, and being able to talk to a professional helped a ton. His cookies were delicious, that helped too.

I called Majima Dad accidentally once and he never let me forget it. Over time it stopped being accidental on my part.

Chuuya let me name a drink after my first novel.

Once Tuuri and I had a conversation about how on a map of Northern Europe, it looks like a dick split in half with Finland being the balls. She thought that was hilarious.

Ryoji was never a monster to me even once, and he should know that.

Silver was the first person I came to after a traumatizing memory. He rushed right over even though I told him he didn't have to.

Even when Zoro and I were only on lukewarm terms, he still demolished a TV in the subway car rather than see a memory I didn't want to be shown.

Even when Baren and I were on bad terms, he probably saved my life.

I dogsat for Mohammed once, in the August with the monsters. Iggy's really not that bad when you get to know him.

Grell has fantastic taste in books and clothes.

Minako and I cosplayed together, and even if that con ended super badly it helped me get my confidence up.

Anya and I got stuck to each other for Valentine's Day and she was really sympathetic about me not being able to go spend the day with my boyfriend with a teenage girl literally attached to me. We ended up watching a movie instead of my other idea, pretending to be in a coma.

I threatened Ann once that if she got hurt on a mission, I'd buy her the most expensive thing on a cafe menu. This apparently worked somehow?

Yato had his own shrine set up in the Inkwell, and I remember coming to work and seeing it and not being able to pass by without at least giving it a nod, if not an actual offering.

Fawkes and I wrote poetry complaining about the time Jim wanted us to write an ode to his girlfriend. Now wife, I guess.

There are more, I know there are more, but trying to think of all of them makes my head hurt a little.

Beta#1201563

[akatatai]

I mean, you already know my answer
But talking about it with you last month really did make me feel better, so I think this is a great idea

Aside from Mao though, it's my family for sure
Hinata and Rise and Chiaki, though they were all on Retrospec for different amounts of time
It didn't feel that weird when they lost access since things just went back to the way they always were
I could still see them every day and it felt almost the same, except there were things I couldn't talk about anymore

But when we're separated from everyone, the divide between those of us with Retrospec starts to sink in
And it starts feeling lonely again

BETA#053118937

[clothes]

There is no one in particular I miss that much. I'm fortunate in that most of the people I've become close to return within a month or so if it appears their app has disappeared. They usually come to their senses quickly, though I suppose it's debatable whether that's a good thing or not.

The person I miss *least*, however, is an easy one. Atsushi Nakajima. I can't express how glad I am I never have to see that pathetic face of his again. Going to his bakery every day was an exercise in patience. If I never see him again, it would still be too soon.

[ ok, helga pataki, calm down ]

[admiringly]

they sound wonderful!
i hope someday soon they get the chance to remember you again
because people who can make you feel like that and make you realize that about yourself are people you should be able to stay connected with

[admiringly]

majima!!
i talked to him once
he likes baseball and fighting
would he not teach you even if he doesn't have retrospec?

[admiringly]

we have each other!
it's just a lot nicer to have more people around
who know more of what you're going through

[admiringly]

oh my gosh this is so many people
i'm sorry you've lost so many people
but it's also great that you love and remember so many
it's really heartwarming

ryoji could never be a monster
even death couldn't make him one
even death couldn't make me stop loving him
all he wants to do is embrace the world

minako is really great at that isn't she?
helping to support people and give them confidence
she's so bright and strong and cares so much for people
if i could be a little more like her that way
i'd be happy

i'm glad anya convinced you to watch movies instead!
i think pretending to be in a coma would've alarmed your boyfriend more
anya's really sweet and understanding
she's someone who tries hard and pursues what she wants
she reaches for her dreams and catches stars

yato!!
i don't know if he should be worshiped
but he absolutely deserves to be remembered and acknowledged
his personality is larger than life
and he always tried to come through for the people he loved
i think he'd try to move the heavens if he could

[thesettingsun]

They deserve to be remembered. No matter how many of them there are.

Ryoji and I adopted a sea slug and named her Georgia Parva, and she is the cutest sea slug in the entire world.

I think you're a lot more like Minako than you realize.

Anya's a sweetheart. She supported me in October in my nightmares, and she asked me once how to help people when your memories aren't as serious as theirs... I hope I helped her a little.

That sounds just like him. We were never very close, but I would never wish being forgotten on anyone.

[admiringly]

i really miss hinata and rise too
i miss talking to them without a filter
without having to catch myself
all your cousins sparkle with life

i don't know how to make it happen
but i want that divide to be torn down someday
so that even if they don't have retrospec
we can still talk to them about it

[admiringly]

that's lucky for you!
lucky in the way that you don't have to miss them
if your or their memories are on the more terrible side then i'm sorry but it's good that you're still surrounded by people who will know what you're going through

oh no
was this atsushi rude to you?
is it the atsushi that shuji says is a cute tiger?

[ does akutagawa have a secret closet shrine to go with this declaration ]

[admiringly]

they do! they 1000000% do!

ooh is the sea slug still around?
outside of this phone world i mean

sdfjsa nooo shuji she's who i aspire to be like!!
minako kicks butts and takes names
all while being very kind and considerate!!

i'm sure you did help anya shuji
just like you've helped me multiple times

i want all my friends to be friends but if i think about it
i don't know if you and yato would get alone very well
or if you'd fight like cats and dogs if you got to know each other more?

[pronounces]

it'd have to be one of my old residents, mikachin
he was only on the app for a month or so, but... it was nice to have something to bond over. i always thought he didn't like me that much, but we got really close when he came onto retrospec.
and then, i found out he was really close to me in the other life, too
i've had a lot of memories of him since he left the app.
i'm kind of glad it protects him from all of these horrible things, but...
it'd be nice to share things like the music from the other life with him, you know?

[admiringly]

it's good that you found out he doesn't hate you!!

do you still talk to him now?
or is it harder because he doesn't have retrospec anymore?
it might not be the same but he could still enjoy the music
even if he doesn't know where it's from

[invocate]

we do!

i did befriend some of them again after the left the app

but it wasn't quite the same

who do you miss?

[admiringly]

if they become aware again i'm sure they'll really appreciate it
and your friendship will be that much stronger for it!

i don't know if i could list them all
my cousins my brother
mikorin mafuyu kiyo
yuuko yoshiko
there's just so many

beta#1101575

[cardcaptured]

... Sakura. Sakura Kinomoto.

We knew one another from school before either of us got Retrospec, so it's not like she's forgotten me, but

Not having someone to talk to who shares the same memories as you is... difficult. I'm happier she's off the app, so she doesn't have to worry about this anymore, or be in any danger, but... hiding this sort of thing from someone you're close to and not being able to explain it is hard, too.

But I'd rather have her here than have her missing entirely.

[me_matey]

nah he offered plenty of times. i just never took him up on it.

[akatatai]

Right? That's one way to put it
Hinata and Chiaki can be too much energy to handle when they're together...
But I love them all the same
There's never a boring day in the Aoi family, with or without Retrospec

You mean like having them remember, even if they can't access the app?
That would solve a lot of problems
But think I want the physical barrier to be gone more than anything
Remember how the layers got messed up and everyone disappeared this summmer?
And we're separated from them all right now too

It feels too... I don't know the right word. Isolating, maybe
But I hate it.

[thesettingsun]

I think so? I haven't checked recently, but she's probably still out there living her best life.

Even if you aren't as good a fighter as her, you have as strong a will as she does.

♥

Maybe we would have bickered. I think our closest experience together was fighting a hair demon or something like that? But there wasn't a lot of talking and getting to know each other then.

[admiringly]

is she the girl you like?

but i understand 100%
i feel that way about all the people i knew who used to be one the app
even if there's some kind of invisible divide between us i still want to be able to see them all and talk to them one way or another