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Been a while since I asked a vague personal question on the network! Probably because I lost network access for a while there, but still. I'm overdue. So, quick summary, past me was Bad and I do not want to be like him. He also was older than me at the end of his life, and he had kids. He was not a great dad. Not like an abusive parent or anything, and I think he loved them as much as he was capable, but that's not very much. What does it say that I'm thinking more lately about whether I want kids someday? Now that I have this example of 'me' messing it up?

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Maybe it's because you're worried about them. I mean, Mr. Dazai cared about them, right?

Well... It's Dazai, so the standard is pretty low.

I guess. Sorry. Maybe I'm not really the kind of person who can help you with this. I don't know anything about kids.

I'm concerned if you think I do?

I mean, you were pretty nice to me. To Lina? I don't want to say we're different, but also we kind of are, just one's me broken down and recreated in another world and the other one's me put back together. But you were always helpful and nice and stuff.

Being nice to your neighbor who's younger than you is a lot different than raising a child from birth. Not that I don't appreciate you saying so, but. It's not really the same.

I guess... Sorry. But there's books and advice groups and stuff at least, right?

Thank god. It's a problem normal people have too.

I guess parenting would be pretty scary. What brought on thinking about it, anyway?

Starts with M, rhymes with buena vista.

Does that mean you two talked?

Edited 2019-06-29 03:22 (UTC)

Talking's generous. I cried at him for an hour.

Is he going to be okay? Are you going to be okay? What happened?

We're going to be okay. Just emotional.

I'm really glad. You needed something good to happen for a long time, I think.

Mista's always my something good. I couldn't ask for anything more.

You don't see grownups get all lovey like that often.

I regret to inform you that I am extremely gay.

So everything's okay now? I mean, in Recollé with all of you.

Everything's okay. No giant eye, we can contact the outside world, everyone who used to be on the network remembers it.

I'm really glad. ...it's kind of funny, right? I wanted to come back home before that, but what really pushed me was having no one left. Now everyone remembers again.

Edited (new keyboard hates capitalization) 2019-06-30 13:52 (UTC)

I'm sorry. I wish I could have stayed.

It's not your fault. No one wanted to forget. I mean, except the people who actually legit asked to forget after the whole thing was over, but you know...

Forgetting after the fact is different from forgetting while the situation's still going and people need help.

Yeah. I feel like that, too, a lot of the time. Even though there were times I wanted to give up.