scarlet_devil: ([Adult] A smile)
Remilia Scarlet ([personal profile] scarlet_devil) wrote in [community profile] retrospec2017-04-01 04:28 pm

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Émilie Écarlate shared a photo.
04/01 near Peach Beach

My trip to the beach went on for a bit longer than expected. Still, I got this shot of sunset over the sea.
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[personal profile] true_noir 2017-04-02 04:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh lord.

I had a blow up on the network while you were out of town. One of my visions involved a girl I was having tea with in another. We were kissing, and the whole scene was incredibly stressful for me, for reasons I am sure you can guess.
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[personal profile] true_noir 2017-04-02 04:55 pm (UTC)(link)
I am not even able to tell her about this, and I haven't told anyone, but we were naked in that dream. The sight of it was just mortifying. But, Emilie, this is not as easy as it once was.

She and I are growing more distant. Two years we have been apart, and she does not see the things I do in this place. It is causing a greater and greater strain as she seems not to understand anything of what I experience. I feel as if we are starting to grow apart, and that kills me a little. Seeing another woman I never met in my dreams has not helped.
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[personal profile] true_noir 2017-04-02 05:01 pm (UTC)(link)
That is far too gracious of you, and as sweet as you are to offer something like that, I couldn't impose upon you. Thank you for thinking of me, but if these "Memories" are going to get in the way of our relationship in the end, I think you and I both know that they are going to get in the way, whether or not I am able to visit.

They might even if she lived here. If we cannot work this out somehow, I will have to figure something out. Mother, at least, is still mother. She worries constantly, but she is still healthy. It has just been stressful is all
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[personal profile] true_noir 2017-04-02 05:14 pm (UTC)(link)
Facetime helps a lot, but knowing that the plan is to have her move out after college and me to work on getting a business of my own to receive her. It is a lot to plan, and her own plans may change.

Still, I should not let myself worry as much as I do.