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04/01 near Recolle

You know, I was starting to feel a little left out of everyone else having strange hallucinations about things they never think they did, but then I received a photograph. The note stated it was me in the photo, but as you can tell, that's a little difficult to tell, and I've no idea who that girl is, either; it's not me as a child, that is for sure. More curious is the date says '1970' - that's before I was born. It didn't trigger any kind of hallucination either, so perhaps it was delivered to the wrong place? If it is someone else's, I would be happy to forward it to your address if necessary. Otherwise, I think it may be going in a box. It's kind of creepy.

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This is going to sound nuts but I've become weirdly convinced I was born earlier than I actually was.

But it's not enough to span decades, just a few years off, I don't know about your case.

Edited 2017-04-03 13:52 (UTC)

Well, it's not quite ten years, but it's definitely before my mother would have even been pregnant with me.

But I'm old enough as it is, I don't think I particularly want to end up older than that!

Even if the hallucination(?) of what zodiac animal I had was there, I didn't look physically older along with it so there is that.

That would be frightening though wouldn't it? After everything that's already happening, physically aging abruptly too.

Well that's odd. If you were born under another animal and didn't age? I suppose people don't change too terribly much in just a few years, so there's a chance you looked the same because of that but...

I don't know. I think I'd look a little different if I was rounding in on 50. At least I'd have more gray hair if not more wrinkles.

Unless I skipped my right to growth spurts entirely, [ and all the other uglier sides of puberty ] that wouldn't really work.

This is troubling. I don't want to sleep fearing I look way different overnight.

That's... interesting to think of. Yes, I don't think I'd much like waking up looking noticeably older. [Luckily for her, that would never happen anyway!

... Oh wait no, it's because she's dead.]

But lack of sleep can lead to delirium and psychotic episodes, so unfortunately, it's necessary.

Life goes on, and it sounds nicer and nicer to not have Retrospec exist.

It truly does. Even if only for the 'glitches' that keep happening that start to feel more and more like they're on purpose.

... Well, either way, I don't want to find out how old I actually would be if I was... what my age now in that photo in 1970? I'd be in an old folk's home and not out here on the network doing...

Ah, maybe that would be better.

As long as they treat you well and with respect, even if it's much better to be in the care of those you are close to.

Seriously though, Retrospec, what on earth is your agenda? Existential Crises: The Series, how does this benefit anyone.

I'm not sure if I'm ready for generic bran flakes or unflavored oatmeal for breakfast every morning yet, either way.

That's a good question. Mass hysteria has a proven history of being a bad idea. I suppose unless they've figured out how to direct it somewhere on purpose. But it's a little scary to think how much they have planned out if these random things are actually on purpose.

And that still doesn't explain the chocobo thing.

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