002 - TM (TW- Death Mention)

[lingeringwill]

Terra Mason 06/11/17 near Recollé University

blue and green no longer exist outside of a few select cases. somehow, retrospec had the power to do that, along with everything else what don't they have the power to do? i wonder what else they've done that we may have just not noticed... the other day, someone got me thinking about patterns, and i started to realize something... let me conduct a bit of a morbid social experiment, okay? but in the interest of fairness, i'll go first when i was little my mother died. it was fast and sudden--a case of severe pneumonia. she was taken so fast. thief in the night, yeah? the first thing i can remember in my entire life is the look in my dad's eyes as he tried explaining it to me. i was too young to understand at the time...but even as i got older, i still didnt. how can she get that sick, out of nowhere? and just die. i know there's tons of rational reasons for it, but it doesn't sit well, it never has. i realize that this sounds like im refusing to accept the truth but...i can't help wondering. the pneumonia was like a switch. she just died. the universe didn't find her fit to exist anymore or maybe something else i think its obvious what im getting at so, show of hands, everyone. who has one or more dead parents? and if you know i already know the answer to that question...i'm sorry for bringing this back up. really.

Comments

[manolia]

I'd normally say you all are giving Retrospec too much personal information, but considering they seem to know everything anyway, it doesn't matter much whether we confirm their knowledge or not.

Honestly, my father could be dead in a ditch, and could have been at any point of my childhood; I'll never know. My mother is alive. [This is one of the only good things he has to say about his mother.] As we all grow older, and I'm pretty old, the thought of losing parents becomes less an abstract horror and more a "when."

It's something you would have had to confront sometime, be it when you were 14 or 40. If Retrospec were killing them off, it'd be a surprise to me.