Backdated to the 24th

[spes_phthisica]

Soujirou Katsuki 6/24 near Apprassage

okay, so there are a couple of things I've been thinking about. first of all... well, I think probably someone has asked this before, but I don't really feel like digging through the previous entries, so bear with me (^▽^;) in a new hallucinomemory, someone called me by a different name. well, it was like part of my actual name, so maybe it was a nickname, but I'm honestly not sure. it didn't really sound like it. does someone else remember a different name than their own? also, as a side note... if you remembered someone dramatically sweeping you up into their arms...   how would you feel about it? ( *∵* )

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[flowrite]

I was using Fai, actually. As my name, not a nickname. But it wasn't my real name at all.

[spes_phthisica]

that sounds really strange. do you have any idea why you were using a fake name?

[flowrite]

I'm not entirely sure. I just know that I stole it from someone.

[spes_phthisica]

stole?
that sounds like a pretty harsh way to word it.

[flowrite]

Well, maybe not stole. But I took it from someone who was dead.

[spes_phthisica]

oh.
maybe you just cared a lot about them and wanted to honor them somehow?

[flowrite]

Maybe. That's actually possible, I guess.

Mostly I'm just... really confused. Am I Fai? Am I this other person who took that name?

[spes_phthisica]

well, even if you have a different name to begin with, if you use a name as your own and everyone calls you that... it's your name too, isn't it? more than one person can have the same name, after all.

[flowrite]

I guess you're right. it's not really important anyway.

more important: was the person who was sweeping you up attractive? (◕ᴗ◕✿)

[spes_phthisica]

anyway, you are you, not whoever you're remembering <3

and uh well... usually I'm not all that attracted to people?
but he looked very handsome, I think, like he could be a model or something. he had really pretty hair, too.

[flowrite]

you're right, thank you ♥

Oho, like someone from the cover of a romance novel! Can I trade you hallucino-memories? I'll gladly take that one off your hands ;)

[spes_phthisica]

[He has a feeling he knows what Fai is doing. He'd seemed concerned about the name thing, troubled even, and then had suddenly turned around and focused on a lighter subject.

Deflecting. Soujirou's done enough of it himself. But since he also considers it s valid coping mechanism, he obediently doesn't pry... at least for now.]

just a minute here (￣ε(#￣)
it might've been weird, but it's still one of the more enjoyable of my hallucinomemories, you know.
you find your own dorito-shaped fantasy man to sweep you up in his arms. this one's taken! （　｀ハ´）

[flowrite]

...dorito-shaped... oh my god youre adorable can't stop laughing

definitely one of the best memories i've heard so far! my best one was someone calling me Mommy >_>;;;

[spes_phthisica]

well, he was wearing a lot of bulky armor so I couldn't tell for sure, but he looked like he had shoulders for days (*・艸・)

I don't know, though... someone calling you "mommy" sounds kind of cute (๑￫ܫ￩)

[flowrite]

Mmm shoulders. I'm so jealous!! (=^ ◡ ^=) What kind of armor?

Well, it was kind of cute, and I think they meant it in a nice way! I don't remember who it was who called me that though, I wish I did.