Bad Decisions Have Been Made

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THIS IS A PSA ON BEHALF OF TEAM ABSINTHE! MOSTLY ME THOUGH!

Please do not pull off blood sacrifice.

75% of the time that will fuck you over. Source on that figure: A retrospec employee who literally tripped and got stuck in a chest and we had to rescue. So his info might not be uh, the most accurate thing in the world but still.

But seriously don't. I lost a finger and I got nothing but dark miasma, everyone thinking I was a crazy person, and suffering. And only TWO of those are an ordinary part of my life. Nine fingered typing is infinitely harder than you would think it would be! It's really inconvenient and annoying. Along with, well, missing a pinkie. That's a bad thing.

So I'm putting this up here to make sure no one repeats my mistake, and at least, someone gets something out of this.

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IT WAS A MAGICAL ARTIFACT! How did you know it can't figure out intentions!?

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I didn't, but I also didn't jump to cutting off fingers!

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...And what do you know about being a bad person? Sitting there with that smug sense of moral superiority. Just because you are respected and validated for your typical beliefs, you think you're better than I am, huh?

[cattack]

I have no interest in comparing suffering or arguing moral superiority.
Nor the social validities of our beliefs.
But you yourself admit that your dismemberment was pointless, and counterproductive.
Do you just not care about yourself at all?!

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Of course I don't Cleo, if you want my honest opinion on the subject.

[cattack]

Why not?!
And there are better ways to handle that than dismemberment!

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I'm not accomplishing anything useful. And neither have I done so in the past. So, in the grand scheme of things, I'm pretty disposable, even if I would prefer living.

And there definitely are.

[cattack]

A life is not disposable!
A person is not disposable!

[storytelleroftime]

Well just living doesn't mean you're worth anything either!

[cattack]

It does!
There are people who care about you, are there not?!

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Name one. I dare you to.

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The rest of Team Absinthe!

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...What? I thought you all were just keeping me alive out of obligation.

[Of course, she doesn't believe a word of that, but she has a lot of mental stake in that denial. Having other people not care about her was a good excuse for her to not care about them. For her to keep her perpetually forced state of apathy towards them, an apathy she had so worked to maintain. An apathy that was contradicted by a very human desire for companionship, a desire she desperately was trying to force aside. Along with a lot of other things about herself. And she was not stupid enough to think it was healthy, but... she was also stubborn enough not to change it anyways.]

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Were it mere obligation, we would not have allowed you to take that 'access' those people mentioned!
It would be much easier to keep you alive that way, but we allowed you to take that out of respect for your will!

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Oh. I thought you let me take it because I was the most disposable tbh.

[cattack]

What kind of people do you think we are?!

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Pragmatic ones.