ayano's theory of bruises - 9/19, 4:15PM

[kagepuro]

Ummmm

Is there anyone on here who’s like...good at make up that can help me...Like one of those instagram models or something...

I was clumsy enough to give myself a black eye, and I need to hide it from my parents so they don’t freak out or get the wrong idea…

[A picture of Ayano follows, purple and black underline her left eye--thankfully not particularly swollen. Even so, whatever she smashed into must have smashed into her pretty hard. She wears a weak, sheepish smile on her face despite the heavy bruise. If it weren't there, this would be a perfectly good Facebook profile picture, in fact.]

It’s not that bad, right? Silly me...
Maybe I should just do the emo hair thing...?

Comments

[darkinferno]

slow down and give me the full details

you made WHO do it? what do you mean you provoked him

what's gonna be messed up

[He's not promising not to tell anybody yet.]

[kagepuro]

he'll get in trouble...i don't think he has a very good life, and i just made it worse by making him hit me...

He was talking about how bad he was and trying to get me to leave him alone, so i thought I'd say, okay, if you're as bad as you say you are, then hit me as hard as you can!

He actually did it
He struck me so, so hard, dante...

I thought i could prove to him that he wasn't a bad person, but I just made him want to be a bad person even more...i made an already unstable person get even worse and now bad stuff is gonna happen and he's gonna know that it's all because of me...

[darkinferno]

[If Dante hadn't seen that first exchange between Ayano and Malik on the network, he might not have drawn the connection. There are a lot of people out there that don't have good lives, after all, but with that in the back of his mind...]

it's not your fault

he shouldn't have done it, even if you told him to. it's HIS fault he didn't decided to control himself, not yours, that's not your job

have you iced it yet?

and will you at least tell me if it was someone from the network or not

[kagepuro]

yeah..I put ice on it when I went home and managed to hide it from mom and dad until now...

I just feel so stupid and dumb for putting myself in this situation at all, I was prodding an angry dog thinking it would let me pet it
I'm so dumb and stupid and awful, Dante

...yeah, he's on here

[darkinferno]

good. keep putting ice on it, 20 minutes on and 20 minutes off

i'm not gonna say you didn't make a dumb choice here but that doesn't mean it's free range on the pity party, you made a mistake and now you know better for next time

that doesn't mean jack shit about you as a person, got it? so quit calling yourself dumb and stupid and awful, i'm not the type of person that gives pep talks about believing in yourself and all that so don't ask me to do it

and okay. i won't press any further on who it was then

[He's a liar, he's a liar, he's a liar, he's a liar. And he's telling the truth, because he's pretty damn sure now.]

[kagepuro]

[well now you've gone and been too harsh and she's sitting in the girl's bathroom crying for ten minutes before she can respond.]

sorry.

I'm being childish and really pathetic, you're right

And worrying about the person who hit me...

[darkinferno]

[Look, Dante is not the person you come to when you need emotional support. He doesn't do very well with that :( ]

you're doing it again

it's not childish, it's not pathetic, it's not dumb, it's not stupid, it's not awful, it's not any of those things, the only thing you're guilty of is having a little too much faith in people and wanting the world to be a something it's not where everybody's redeemable and bad things don't happen to good people unless it's for character growth

this has nothing to do with you and everything to do with him. HE'S the one that's being a dumbass

[kagepuro]

sorry

Guess i should stop feeling bad for him when I'm the one with the black eye, huh...

He scares me...I'm scared he's gonna do something really bad...

[darkinferno]

now you're getting it

if he scares you, then stay away from him for now. nobody's asking you to put yourself near him again

and if you decide you want to confront him let me know and i'll go with you to make sure he doesn't punch you again

[kagepuro]

[His...intensity is a little scary in and of itself. Almost a detachment. She gets a little less comfortable with her next reply.]

sure. Thanks dante

I'll just...stay away, i guess

[darkinferno]

[Look Dante's an intense person, you get used to it.]

all right

let me know if you need anything else