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[liberal_arts]

Kasen Kaneda shared a photo. 9/20 near Home

San-ju-roku Kasen 三十六歌仙. The 36 Immortals of Poetry My namesake. 歌仙. I was named after these men and women. And that name, associated with these creators of beauty, was used to carry out an act grave brutality. All for some point I don't even understand. I could really use someone to talk to right now. Someone who has had seen great violence. in their new memories.

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[totallynotanoni]

Hi Kasen, this is Katherine.
I texted you in a misfire a few days ago.

I'm very sorry to hear you have to deal with this.
Would you feel oak talking about this with me?

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[liberal_arts]

This may be a bit heavy to lay upon you so soon into our friendship.

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[totallynotanoni]

[ ....Damn, how do you respond to that? ]

I guess it is a bit weird for someone you barely know to offer that.
Sorry about that.
Its my instinct to worry about other people.

Are you doing ok, though?

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[liberal_arts]

I'm honestly not sure. A recent memory has not sat well with me. Several haven't.

[totallynotanoni]

It doesn't sound pleasant from what your post says.

[ "grave act of brutality" doesn't exactly sit well with her. ]

If its okay, could you explain to me who the 36 Immortal Poets are?
My knowledge of Japanese poetry isn't that strong so I'm a bit in the dark.

[liberal_arts]

Fujiwara no Kintou, a famous poet himself, collected the works of 36 other poets, both his peers and those that came before him, into a series of publications during Japanese antiquity, the Heian period specifically. These men and women are basically considered legends in the crafting the art of Japanese poetry. I had to study their works in high school.

[totallynotanoni]

That sounds fascinating.
You seem to know a decent amount about this.
Are you a poet as well as an artist?

[flowrite]

I can't say I've had any explicitly violent memories, but I'm always here if you need someone to listen.

[liberal_arts]

-...-

I've burdened you with a lot of my problems lately. It doesn't really seem fair anymore.

[flowrite]

You haven't used up your quota of my time quite yet, I promise ;)

Besides, I've bothered a lot of other people with my own problems over the last couple of months. Consider me paying it forward (◡‿◡✿)

[liberal_arts]

-Fai this is TOO SERIOUS for emoji.-

I guess I should know better than to try and dissuade you. But even still, I could just stop responding.

But that would probably be cruel.

[flowrite]

[Kasen, nothing is too serious for emoji. Search your heart. You know this to be true.]

You could. I wouldn't blame you. I know I can be obnoxious.

Or just tell me to take a hike and I will. No hard feelings ♥

[liberal_arts]

You've always had too bright a soul for someone like me.

I suppose we can find somewhere to talk.

[sotenbori]

i'm not afraid of violence
if you cant find someone to talk to

[liberal_arts]

I'm not sure if what I'm feeling is fear.

Should I ask what your experience is?

[sotenbori]

its complicated
do you want a listening ear or not?

[liberal_arts]

I do, but I'm an artist, too. Empathy is something I strive for, so... knowing where you're coming from may help me in how I should be wording all of this.

[sotenbori]

theres a lot of crime in my memories

[liberal_arts]

What sort of crime? If you're not comfortable saying so, I understand. It seems this whole thing is dancing around comfort with our selves.

[sharplydressed]

are we talking great violence like battle violence? wars and that kind of stuff?
that seems pretty common around here

[liberal_arts]

Battle implies the sides were equal, and understood the weight of their actions. When a soldier goes into battle, they accept that death is coming.

This was not battle. It made no sense at all, and yet it seemed to have that same sentiment. That it was expected, simply a part of life. I don't get it.

[sharplydressed]

i think i get what you mean
even though i don't think i can help ヘ(´－｀;)ヘ
since saying "it's another time and things were different" doesn't make it easier to make sense of what doesn't apply to stuff today

[liberal_arts]

In all honesty, it's never made sense to me, even when I learned about things like this in history lessons back home. The world of my ancestors seemed so needlessly cruel, and yet even this could not put this whole thing in perspective.

What can one even do when they are not the executor of action, but the tool itself? Do I not have any will in this legacy of madness?

[sharplydressed]

hey wait
can you explain a little?
about the tool thing
i mean i'm still not going to have anything to say that'll help but at least this part i can get, i think

[liberal_arts]

-He could get being a tool? Kasen took a moment to digest that before replying, careful in how he chose his words.-

At first, I thought it was simply disassociation. But recent revelations in the visions granted us have made it abundantly clear that my previous self was not human. Or even a living being in the conventional sense at all. At least, this is the impression I have been given.