watching x-files with no lights on, we're dans la maison

[skald]

Happy 3 AM, fellow Retrospectres who can't/won't sleep because of all the nightmares and ghosts and memory fog and all that (and happy morning to anyone who checks their phone later, I guess)! I'm going to fall asleep if I don't start talking to someone soon and I'm trying to make it until dawn.

IF YOU ARE AWAKE RIGHT NOW, PLEASE WEIGH IN ON SOME/ALL OF THE FOLLOWING TOPICS (or you can message me when you wake up, that's fine too) :

-If this fog thing lasts for much longer, isn't it going to get in the way of Trick-or-Treating? If it rains (/creepy memory fogs) on Halloween, what do little kids (/university students who don't really get to celebrate Halloween in their home countries and would like to) do instead? Do I have to make backup plans or can we start some sort of safety Halloween caravan to protect the little kids (/occasional university students with no cool powers or survival instincts) from the monsters?

-Dave and I made a Finnish-language movie about magic pirates (and some other stuff, lots of symbolism, it's very deep), does anyone want to see it? Here's a trailer: x [this links to a trailer spliced together from this disaster, namely shots of Mafuyu hurling fake severed heads into the distance, Magician's Red looking ominous on camera, someone singing something to the tune of 'A Pirate's Life For Me,' though the accent is so strong it's not identifiable as Finnish, multiple clips from fight scenes, a creepy rabbit mask, and absolutely no subtitles.]

-Completely unrelated: currently taking applications for subtitle and/or scriptwriting positions. Compensation consists of lunch from a taco truck and a couple half-completed customer loyalty cards from various cafes, and you can put it on your CV. Please contact me for additional details.

-What are your top three coffee places in the city, I'm going to try all of them by the end of the month

-Is this better or worse than when half of us disappeared and there were monsters running around in the daytime

-What's the most comfortable lounge to sleep in on the Recolle U campus (during daylight hours, so please no big windows)

-Trick or Treat?

Comments

[skald]

Good point

So I guess you're trying to stop me but not good at it

[usurpers]

you’re just good at letting things fly
are they really that bad?

[skald]

IDK it's embarrassing getting pulled into other people's

Or getting other people's pulled into mine

That's not something that we're supposed to see, you know?

[usurpers]

what
what are you talking about

[skald]

The dreams?

It's not just my dreams that I'm worried about, mine are usually just stupid and embarrassing

But other people get really bad ones and I wouldn't want to peep in on them

[usurpers]

you're trying to saying we're going into other peoples dreams

[skald]

Sometimes? I think so? I thought I was just having weird dreams about random people, but the other people sometimes remember them too

I know it sounds crazy but I don't think it sounds crazier than some of the other stuff that goes on here

[usurpers]

[ well. shit. ]

you've got a point
you're sure they remember the same exact dream?

[skald]

Pretty sure? I don't really want to talk to people about their dreams, though, like I said that's supposed to be private and it's better not to draw attention to it

or to stay up all night so it doesn't happen in the first place.

[usurpers]

so...... don’t talk about it

[ IT’S SO EASY ]

act natural
i didn’t even know, it’s not like everyone else does
get what you’re doing but you can’t stop your whole life for it

[skald]

I'm not stopping my whole life! I'm adapting!

[no she's not.]

[usurpers]

adapting is supposed to be nonprejudicial
that's some pretty crappy adapting

[skald]

I don't understand this sentence, I'm ESL and too tired to figure it out right now

Please rephrase

[usurpers]

you suck at lying to yourself tuuri

[skald]

Hey Eren

On an average day, how many people tell you you're a jerk?

4? 5?

[usurpers]

i’m telling you the truth instead of feeding you bs at 3am to chew
someone has to
or do you like staying up all night forever

[ he is being a jerk and harsh but listen. tuuri. you’re a good. he cares. ]

[skald]

First of all no one said it would be forever, this might be one of those times where things go back to normal after a week-month, instead of like horses or blue

Secondly you're still a jerk

[usurpers]

ok

that’s the same mindset people had about monsters and look at them go
you keep relying on things being temporary and you’re going to break your face. you can do better than that.

[skald]

no I CAN'T

I can't DO ANYTHING. Everyone else has super cool magic or powers or whatever but I don't have any of that. All I can do is hope that htis is temporary or spend the rest of my life adjusting to it

this is me adjusting because I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ELSE

[usurpers]

i don’t have powers either
but what good are powers when the problem is what you’re thinking

you can, but before you can you need to believe that
or else you really won’t be able to do anything

[skald]

Idk that's easy for you to say when you're out doing air force stuff all the time

I'm not that sort of person, I can't just charge into things like that. The only big thing I ever did in my life was move here and that ended up putting me in the middle of all of this stupid Retrospec stuff.

private

[usurpers]

listen
i broke my ass to get into the air force and im breaking my ass to stay in it
because it’s the only thing i believe i can do
there isn’t a single day my dad doesn’t low key disown me for not doing medicine
don’t think it’s easy because nothing is easy for anyone
but just because it isn’t easy doesn’t mean it’s impossible

private

[skald]

[There's a long delay between these messages, before she eventually responds with just]

I'm sorry

[And then another, shorter pause before]

About the thing with your dad. I was being a jerk because I was tired, I'm s orry

private

[usurpers]

i thought i was being the jerk

[ humor attempt: made. ]

his loss. what matters in the end is if i’m free or not.
you said you don’t have powers. know any self defense?

private

[skald]

We can both be jerks, it's not mutually exclusive

I am very good at freezing up and hoping that the scary things go away.