TEXT } coming at you live from lockup.

[godcards]

Well, I'm stuck inside, so tell me: is Retrospec doing anything noteworthy? Is it raining fire or flooding toxic waste into the streets yet? And before anyone jumps down my throat about reading the post... No, I didn't, because this computer is so old it can hardly load anything. Even the usual stupid underhanded bullshit that company does would be a more interesting read about than staring at a wall for hours.

The concept of 'free time' here is a joke when it's the same thing every single day. Monotony and restrictions that keep you from doing much of anything because it could be considered 'dangerous'... so, entertain me. I'm bored. I have a couple hours to kill. At least tell me if there's some world-changing disaster going on that's going to make my life even MORE difficult while I'm in here...

Comments

[frostythehitman]

yeah well lucky for those of us who live in reality
no one cares if you remember it or not
doesn't change the fact that you did it, and these people are gonna have to live with it now

[floret]

When you eventually get to go outside, what do you hope the weather will be like? I actually like cloudy days the best. Maybe it's weird to think of it this way, but they seem a little more low-key and casual than sunny days, so I feel like I can relax more.

[parodeity]

yeah like
its very odd and i guess well see by the end of the month exactly how much shit changes?

[kagepuro]

it's been a while.

[godcards]

I still have no idea what the hell you're talking about.

[ Sort of. He did get questioned about it but of course they all think he's faking too... ]

[godcards]

I just want to go outside. I don't really care. I don't like being kept in here.

The sun would be best... I like the warmth. It's too cold this time of year. Everything here is dull and sterile and it's only moreso when it's not sunny out.

[godcards]

I suppose so... Tell me if it gets worse, that way it won't be a total shock once I leave.

[godcards]

You just don't know when to quit, do you?

[kagepuro]

Arrange things so that I can come see you, please

[godcards]

Excuse you? Who do you think you are, giving me orders like that.

I can't "arrange" anything, you idiot. This isn't a vacation.

[kagepuro]

just be prepared for it, okay?

You owe me one

[godcards]

For what, exactly?

[kagepuro]

for punching me in the face

dont tell me you forgot

I'm willing to let it go, malik
I'm on your side, so id like to see you

[godcards]

On my side? Really? It's a little late for that, I'm already under lock and key until further notice... This isn't about "sides." I have no choices regarding anything about myself, I have no control... You're too late to do whatever it is that you plan on doing.

[kagepuro]

malik

Do you realize how difficult the last 20 days of my life have been?

It is so hard to talk to you right now, i want to cry just looking at your name and seeing your face

But

I promised you that i would do this, and I'm not going to let what happened ever happen again

"They'll let me go once I'm 'better'"

You're gonna get better and I'm gonna help you
Dante was wrong to do what he did to you, and treat you the way that he treated you, malik
I'm on your side, i promise

[godcards]

If you're trying to garner sympathy you're in the wrong place. Do you know how difficult MY life has been? No, you don't, so shut up.

Keep your pity party at home. I don't want it here. I don't want anything to do with you if you're going to make this another moral crusade. I have enough "help" without you patronizing me.

[kagepuro]

if i wanted sympathy i would go find someone who loves me and tell them about how i was tied up and stabbed and beaten and begged you to just kill me because it was more than i could even possibly handle

I don't want your sympathy
I'm not on a moral crusade
I would rather do almost anything than talk to you
I can go save a cat from a tree if i want to feel good about myself

Most people will hate me and think I'm stupid for doing this anyway, you know

people have treated you like a violent monster for way too long, and they've had no right to treat you that way
You deserve to have your side of things told

[godcards]

You've said twice now that you don't want to talk to me or even look at my name. It sickens you. Then why bother? Why are you so determined to put yourself in front of me to be disgusted... when you're also telling me you want to help? That's rather hypocritical don't you think? But I guess that would be the natural reaction to a monster, regardless of how you want to feel.

You can tell me you don't have any sort of cause, but I don't believe you have purely good and selfless intentions either. Nobody does. If you are so sickened by the very thought of my presence then there must be some other force driving you. Humans, by nature, are driven by greed... their selfish desires to get what they want. It's how they survive, after all! You're no different. You're doing this for a reason, so you might as well cut the bullshit and tell me the real reason.

[frostythehitman]

fine then
play dumb all you want
you're still doing time whether you own up to it or not

[ and that's it. BYE MALIK, HE'S HAD THE LAST WORD AND HE'S GONE NOW. rot in hell, kthx ]

[parodeity]

will do
ill see you next saturday man

[floret]

Does that mean summer is your favorite season? Do you like going to the beach?

[kagepuro]

you don't sicken me.

The trauma of what happened is what makes it so difficult to speak with you, to look at you

You're doing the same thing to me that people always do to you, you're shutting me down without even trying to understand me, attacking me with what you think you understand about me.

I think that what happened happened for a reason
I reached out to you, and you heard me, didn't you?

That's why

[godcards]

Summer is the most freeing season... not to mention the warmest, as mentioned. As for the beach... I don't mind it either way. I don't go out of my way for it.

[godcards]

You're giving me a headache. Stupid girl.

Since you refuse to let this go... I'll allow you to visit once. I can blacklist you for any reason I see fit, so consider yourself lucky I didn't do that instead. You start anything or pull any of your antics and you are gone. I'll make sure of it.

[floret]

I kind of feel the same way, but I wonder if that's just because I've always lived near the beach. If I moved inland,
maybe I'd realize I miss it. Did you grow up here in the city?