TEXT } coming at you live from lockup.

[godcards]

Well, I'm stuck inside, so tell me: is Retrospec doing anything noteworthy? Is it raining fire or flooding toxic waste into the streets yet? And before anyone jumps down my throat about reading the post... No, I didn't, because this computer is so old it can hardly load anything. Even the usual stupid underhanded bullshit that company does would be a more interesting read about than staring at a wall for hours.

The concept of 'free time' here is a joke when it's the same thing every single day. Monotony and restrictions that keep you from doing much of anything because it could be considered 'dangerous'... so, entertain me. I'm bored. I have a couple hours to kill. At least tell me if there's some world-changing disaster going on that's going to make my life even MORE difficult while I'm in here...

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[godcards]

If you're trying to garner sympathy you're in the wrong place. Do you know how difficult MY life has been? No, you don't, so shut up.

Keep your pity party at home. I don't want it here. I don't want anything to do with you if you're going to make this another moral crusade. I have enough "help" without you patronizing me.

[kagepuro]

if i wanted sympathy i would go find someone who loves me and tell them about how i was tied up and stabbed and beaten and begged you to just kill me because it was more than i could even possibly handle

I don't want your sympathy
I'm not on a moral crusade
I would rather do almost anything than talk to you
I can go save a cat from a tree if i want to feel good about myself

Most people will hate me and think I'm stupid for doing this anyway, you know

people have treated you like a violent monster for way too long, and they've had no right to treat you that way
You deserve to have your side of things told

[godcards]

You've said twice now that you don't want to talk to me or even look at my name. It sickens you. Then why bother? Why are you so determined to put yourself in front of me to be disgusted... when you're also telling me you want to help? That's rather hypocritical don't you think? But I guess that would be the natural reaction to a monster, regardless of how you want to feel.

You can tell me you don't have any sort of cause, but I don't believe you have purely good and selfless intentions either. Nobody does. If you are so sickened by the very thought of my presence then there must be some other force driving you. Humans, by nature, are driven by greed... their selfish desires to get what they want. It's how they survive, after all! You're no different. You're doing this for a reason, so you might as well cut the bullshit and tell me the real reason.

[kagepuro]

you don't sicken me.

The trauma of what happened is what makes it so difficult to speak with you, to look at you

You're doing the same thing to me that people always do to you, you're shutting me down without even trying to understand me, attacking me with what you think you understand about me.

I think that what happened happened for a reason
I reached out to you, and you heard me, didn't you?

That's why

[godcards]

You're giving me a headache. Stupid girl.

Since you refuse to let this go... I'll allow you to visit once. I can blacklist you for any reason I see fit, so consider yourself lucky I didn't do that instead. You start anything or pull any of your antics and you are gone. I'll make sure of it.