{1st Demon; Text}

[dejerate]

So. Question for everyone. Uh, these regains. I was told some could be pretty heavy or whatever but. A virus killing off anyone over thirteen, and vampires taking over? That seems pretty huge. Not sure if anyone else has a memory like that but. This was already annoying enough. Remembering meeting that blonde haired brat at the orphanage, and everything else with this damned thing. And I've only had this what? Not quite a month yet. I don't want to be remembering some virus killing everyone on Christmas, but now I sure won't get that out of my head.

Every time I see these damned decorations now I'm going to remember that. Shit. The hell does anyone actually adjust to dealing with this stuff? Do you ever? Or is it still just insane?

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[activatingcombatmode]

[WTF? Viruses? Vampires?]

You feeling alright, kid? That's pretty intense.

[dejerate]

Y -- no. I don't know. I'm sure there's more to it, but. I guess this is the sort of shit everyone was trying to warn me about.

[activatingcombatmode]

Hey, for all we know this is still just all shit coming back up from our past lives.

You're fine. Don't let this ruin your feelings on Christmas. I know it's probably easier said than done but still.

[dejerate]

I dunno how I won't be thinking about this on the day, at least. If not every day leading up to it now. But I guess we'll see how it goes.
Maybe you were right. Keeping busy with helping out or whatever might keep me distracted.

[activatingcombatmode]

Yeah I get you i just remembered fighting some weird ass turtle things with a sword and even if thats not as crazy as viruses and vampires it's still hard not to think about

[dejerate]

You fought turtles? They are not even half your size, dude. Do I want to ask why you were attacking them with a sword?

[Sure. Try use the turtles as distraction from......all of this. It might work at least for a minute or two.]

[promisedyou]

I don't have a memory like that, fortunately.

But that kind of sucks. I don't know much about adjusting because I'm still rather new myself, but finding someone you trust to talk about it probably helps!

[dejerate]

I'm still figuring who actually has this app or whatever, being newer to this myself. Pretty sure my foster dad doesn't, so he's out.

[promisedyou]

Yeah, it's pretty difficult since there's a lot of people on here...

[dejerate]

I guess even if there was a list or something that would need to be updated all the time with more of us getting access to this nonsense.
I mean. Assuming someone has made one or whatever. I'm still kinda figuring this out,
really.

[promisedyou]

Well everyone's names are public on here, right? I'm sure some computer programmer or someone could probably make a list.

[manufactured]

[Oh. That's...]

I don't know if I would say it gets easier. Having people to talk to does help, though it's understandable if no one in your immediate circle is someone you would turn to - whether due to a lack of any experience with this sort of thing, or just not wanting to speak of things like that with them. There are only so many things one can tell their friends in good conscience, after all.

I do have a fair amount of experience myself with memories regarding viral outbreaks, bioterrorism, and inhuman monsters, should venting be something you're interested in.

[dejerate]

I dunno. I mean, how do you talk about this with anyone? Even if you're close and trust them? If whatever other memories I get, if this is any indication, I'd rather not get any more.

Not that those assholes are likely going to care and actually listen.

Wait, seriously?

[manufactured]

Yes, seriously. It isn't particularly pleasant to remember, in my experience, and it never really gets moreso, but I assume from the sound of it that you're fairly recent on the app? If that's the case, then eventually it will become slightly easier to talk to others about it, simply due to the nature of interacting with people that are likewise on Retrospec. They're...understanding, at least, and though I'm personally not the sort to trust anyone, they do tend to have useful things to say and are often convenient for discussion of things that we can't bring to anyone off the app in general.

[...I mean, that was really clinical and kind of an asshole thing to just say in front of God and everyone, but hopefully it gets the point across.]

Obviously, I'd also like to not get any further memories like that, but Retrospec hasn't seen fit to stop in my case, either. But the people here have generally made it at least somewhat less hideous in terms of dealing with it.

[dejerate]

I just got it recently, yeah. I mean. I guess it's one thing that others are getting back weird memories or whatever but. This seems pretty far out there. I mean I know viruses and illnesses were huge problems centuries ago but not now. This memory still seemed fairly modern? Recent? I dunno. Maybe I'll feel more comfortable with all this after dealing with it a bit.

Or the opposite, if I keep getting memories like this. If this is any indication.

[lesinset]

its all insane
do you have a way to talk to people about it
or someone you trust to talk about it
also
dont understand why vampires would take over the world
seems stupid
killing people like crazy would cause a food shortage

[dejerate]

Gonna guess that's why they were taking in us kids that were left. To keep their 'food supply' even if the adults and teenagers were gone.

Or they could just be lying but I'm not sure.

Well, I know I can't question my foster dad about it. He doesn't have the app. Not sure what everyone else is remembering but. I don't wanna unload this on them either. Not on top of whatever they're already dealing with.

[lesinset]

sounds like a dumb move
unless they are trying to figure out how
the disease attacked just adults and not anyone younger
and prevent that from happening again

ruling the world is ridiculous in any case

eh cant say that some have rough memories
but this is a way to find like situations
sharing makes it easier to explain weird powers

[dejerate]

I don't know. I'm not sure why it only seemed to kill the older kids and adults. But I guess as long as they took us kids that were left, they could still get their precious blood supply.

But well, if the virus killed off that many, I doubt the vampires would need that many numbers, if there were just kids left.

Like situations. You say that like 'of course there's other memories people have with viruses. Or vampires. The world ending as we know it,
on Christmas.'

[lesinset]

they should try to make blood
use the time to figure out why older people die
since if it is still around and you grow to the right age
you die too and children cannot have children
the supply would run out then

never know
people keep waking up to this
someone out there may also remember that kind of world
in case you fall asleep again
this too can be a record of what you remembered

[ladytakamaki]

That IS kind of a huge deal...
But coming from someone with a pretty dark memory? I guess it's still insane to me, but there's people on the app who are willing to help others like us through it.
I can lend an ear, if you really need someone to talk to?

[dejerate]

Great. Yeah, I figured it was still crazy but.
Figured maybe I could be hopeful in asking. For those that have been dealing with this longer than I have.

I dunno if there's much to talk about yet. I'm not even sure what the virus was. Why it only killed the older kids and adults. If any ended up somehow surviving it that were older. Let alone the vampires being added into the mix.

[ladytakamaki]

Vampires?
As if things couldn't get any crazier, huh?

How long have you been on the app?

[dejerate]

Yeah, vampires. I guess they were taking advantage of there being no adults. Or just scared and not wanting to lose their precious blood supply, so they were gathering the rest if us kids.

About a month or so. Something like that. You?

[ladytakamaki]

That's so messed up... You guys were just kids. I'm sorry to hear that you had those memories.
Just remember that those were in your past. Even if we're supposedly supposed to be our past selves...it's important to focus on the present.

It's been around...4 months for me, I think?