004. Text // the world is an ashtray, we burn and coil like cigarettes

[manufactured]

I know there have been questions related to this sort of thing before – questions regarding people who serve a recurring position in our memories, people that were clearly important but that we've never met in this lifetime. People that we know intimately without directly knowing them at all.

For those who have experienced that sort of person... Have you begun to miss them, as time goes on? Or does it just feel empty in some way, for lack of a better phrase – as though you should care about these people, but inexplicably do not?

Are you somehow fonder of them now than you were in your memories, after having gotten to experience them with some distance between you as opposed to living in the moment with them?

I suppose there's some irony in spending the turn of the year dwelling on something I never had in the first place, but then, no one ever claimed anything Retrospec brings on is convenient in any way.

Comments

[mr_fancy_car]

There are two people I should have known since elementary school and who seem to have stayed with me until adulthood, but I have not seen them around here at all.

I don't miss them, but I do want to know more about what roles they ought to have in my life.

[sunnyspot]

It's been a while. Thanks for responding to my post a few months ago.

Back then, I felt more like something was missing. Like I knew how important that person was to me, but couldn't reach them. But I've kept getting memories since then, and they're starting to feel more real.

I'll probably never meet them. I haven't seen them around the city at all. But I can't say that I don't feel drawn to them, after remembering what I have. I guess it's something like that.

[windeity]

interesting question.
but yes. there is someone i have a lot of memories of and who i have never met here, and i actually do miss her and wish i could see her myself.
the other thing is you have to wonder what would actually happen if those people suddenly showed up here. would they remember and want to get to know you, too, or would they be distant and weird about it?
i do not think fonder is the word i would use. mostly because i seemed pretty fond of her in my memories in the first place.

[usurpers]

it’s probably really hit and miss. we all know people really well in our memories, in some way, but how thats going to translate in this life is pretty up in the air.

[playdolls]

I remember them, and I know what I should be feeling. Maybe I'm lucky not to.