text; can you let me out? can you set me free from this dark inner world?

[truedetective]

[Why, what is this text message going out in the middle of the night?

It's someone who's hoping that not only will everyone be consumed with larger matters of what's happening in the world around them, but who will be fast asleep and not get this.

She knows she has to do this. She knows she needs to be honest with everyone, that she can't keep just hiding behind her assumed identity anymore.

It doesn't mean Naoto has to like it.]

"To thine own self be true." It's kind of a cliche saying at this point.
That doesn't make it inaccurate.

I can't think of any subtle or sensitive way to say this, so I might as well just be blunt: I've been keeping a secret from everyone as long as I've been living in this city. I haven't been honest.
While I've been outwardly presenting as male for quite some time now, I am-- and have always been-- a girl.

I apologize to anyone who feels that I've lied to them or deceived them. I'm sorry.
I hope this won't lead any of you to think differently of me, but that may be asking too much.

Good night.

[She hits send, and immediately regrets doing this at all. Oh god, this was a mistake.]

Comments

[redarm]

[ Noah is a master in the school of "w/e idgaf about opinions", so- ]

so? if theyre pissed
they can just fucking deal.

pretty sure everyones got skeletons in their closets anyway.

[Noah sure has plenty he doesn't tell people]

[truedetective]

That is an almost admirable dedication to not caring about others' opinions of you. Unfortunately, some people who I have not been forthright with include classmates, friends, and even people who can potentially torpedo my own career goals.

[redarm]

not really?
i mean you lied about your gender, but its not like you committed a crime.
youre still you.

[truedetective]

You don't think there will be people angry that I've essentially been deceiving them for a year?
Who might have thought I otherwise trusted them?

[redarm]

hell, how many times have you watched mulan?
no ones gonna ditch you on a snowy mountaintop
maybe people who are really sensitive about lying but
again, theres bigger things to lie about.

[truedetective]

I suppose you're correct about that. I certainly hope you are, at any rate. I can't, however, particularly disagree if anyone does have an issue with it.

[redarm]

not surprised you wouldnt disagree with them.
you wouldnt have chosen to hide it in the first place if you werent worried about peoples opinions

just i dunno, dont let it get to you too much.
the naoto i know is someone that doesnt back down from sharing her simulation theory
even if theres people who dont like it.
so dont back down from being yourself if theres people who get mad
whoever she may be.

[truedetective]

Thank you for your faith in me. I can't say I entirely feel it's deserved right now. But it is appreciated. Truly.

[redarm]

well good thing i have it whether you feel its deserved or not.
youll be alright

[truedetective]

Thank you.
I hope you're right.