text; can you let me out? can you set me free from this dark inner world?

[truedetective]

[Why, what is this text message going out in the middle of the night?

It's someone who's hoping that not only will everyone be consumed with larger matters of what's happening in the world around them, but who will be fast asleep and not get this.

She knows she has to do this. She knows she needs to be honest with everyone, that she can't keep just hiding behind her assumed identity anymore.

It doesn't mean Naoto has to like it.]

"To thine own self be true." It's kind of a cliche saying at this point.
That doesn't make it inaccurate.

I can't think of any subtle or sensitive way to say this, so I might as well just be blunt: I've been keeping a secret from everyone as long as I've been living in this city. I haven't been honest.
While I've been outwardly presenting as male for quite some time now, I am-- and have always been-- a girl.

I apologize to anyone who feels that I've lied to them or deceived them. I'm sorry.
I hope this won't lead any of you to think differently of me, but that may be asking too much.

Good night.

[She hits send, and immediately regrets doing this at all. Oh god, this was a mistake.]

Comments

[maskreant]

[truedetective]

That is




strangely inspiring

[maskreant]

yeah, don't be discouraged.

if it feels right to you, then that's what matters.

[truedetective]

I am hoping it will soon feel more right to me than it currently does.

[maskreant]

it takes time to get used to it, but you're doing well.

take time to yourself if you ever need it, too.

[truedetective]

Unfortunately, living my life does not easily afford me time to do that. Unless I decide to not go to school or work or grocery shopping for a month. Which would be somewhat defeating the purpose.

[maskreant]

giving yourself a break just means not being so hard on yourself. do some things you enjoy and stuff. time to yourself once in a while isn't a sin or anything.

loosen up.

[truedetective]

I will readily admit without hesitation that I am not very good at doing that.

[maskreant]

all right.

what do you like doing?

[truedetective]

Solving mysteries, to be honest.
Reading books, particularly detective stories. (See above.)
I actually enjoy learning new things quite a bit.

[maskreant]

have you ever read visual novels? there are a couple of good mystery ones.

the visuals and sound effects add to the atmosphere, too.

[truedetective]

Visual novels?
On the computer, you mean?

No, I've never really explored that medium. Do you have any recommendations?

[maskreant]

they're also on the PSP now, but yeah. they're on the computer.

sure. let me send you a list.

[ There are a mixed of mystery ones... Though they're also cross horror. Don't judge him. ]

[truedetective]

Thank you. I'll check these out.
I don't actually, uh, own a game console of any kind, though. The computer will have to suffice.