{3rd Demon; Text}

[dejerate]

Guessing I'm not the only one here who apparently isn't human. Or, who isn't entirely human? I'm not sure at this point. But then, I guess that's to be expected when I remembered about Ashuramaru -- apparently my katana I got is supposed to have a demon in it or something. That's his name. Ashuramaru. Literally 'Perfect Ashura', from what I remember of Japanese.

But. I dunno, when even a demon tells you you're insane. Got to wonder what was going on. What I did that he said that.

I'm not sure how much more I can brush off with trying to ignore this. Trying to focus on school now that's back again and all, when I get memories like this. I dunno. Seems while these memories help fill things in it also leaves me with more questions. It's frustrating. Just like when we get messages from those jerks that run and made this insane app. And there's probably only so much that can be dealt with or brushed aside for homework or training to use the sword to tire myself out.

Not to mention the sudden dome of darkness and all recently too. I get that others said to try focus on things here to live a normal life still but. I'm seriously questioning how the fuck that is possible. All things considered.

Even with what little context I have for this other me or other life or whatever this is supposed to be.

Comments

[matchbreaker]

No, I understand.

Try to keep ahold of yourself, though. Falling too far down the rabbit hole there's not healthy for anyone. Find people to talk about things if you want, or maybe find some other outlet.

[dejerate]

Some other outlet. Like what?
My training, I guess?

[Aikido, to use his katana, his training to be fit enough and ready if he chooses to follow in his foster father's footsteps in joining the military? Probably something like that.]

[matchbreaker]

That, talking, writing, sketching. I know I sketch people from my memories personally.

[dejerate]

Sketching, huh? I dunno that I'm the best with art but maybe.

[matchbreaker]

It could be anything, really, whatever suits you. Memories are strange and processing foreign ones is better done externally, I think.

[dejerate]

I guess for me it'd probably be more my training than art. But yeah. Gotta deal with this somehow.

[matchbreaker]

Mmmhm. And preferably without it eating up your life.

[dejerate]

Without that? Seems like a tall order considering.

[matchbreaker]

Of course it is, but that's why it's worth doing. You're your own boy.

[dejerate]

My own -- well. yeah. I think I get it. What you're trying to say, anyway.

[matchbreaker]

Good, so bare that in mind!

[dejerate]

Just gotta figure what to do to distract me and keep me going I guess.