A wish.

[livingimpaired]

[ The Holy Grail. He does not recall exactly what it is, but from what he gathers from the brief memory with the "King of Heroes," it is something to wish upon. And Kei's other self would allow that man to "wish for death." What does that mean? No, he understands it simply, but there is more said and unsaid than he can unravel. ]

With all this business going on, some frivolousness ponderings might be an enjoyable distraction.

Well, then. If you could wish for anything, what would it be? [ A pause. Kei thinks of sending it like that yet he feels that may be too telling. Too telling of what? He's uncertain, but adds more to cover up his uncertainty. ] Though, with Valentine's Day is coming, most are thinking of just wishing for someone to spend that day with, hm? :)

Comments

[livingimpaired]

That is a beautiful wish. It ensures your happiness will be obtained on your own and by yourself.

I like it.

But does that mean you are having troubles sleeping out in that fiahibg village, too?

[ohrlyeh]

i never had problems sleeping in general but i tend to sleep wherever my body wants to sleep, i have no control over it

so i have gotten sleep but the rest of the time i've been too anxious to sleep

.... phone. Why?

[livingimpaired]

As do very few...

That makes sense from your last messages. I was hoping things had settled down some since then. But I suppose that is too much to hope for you.

[ohrlyeh]

not really it's just been a constant level of anxiety over here

then again when have things ever been peaceful since i've gotten into retrospec? like, never. that's the answer

[livingimpaired]

It really has been the most unfair to you, Howard.


[ And he does honestly mean that from what he knows of his friend. ]

[ohrlyeh]

i just have the worst kind of luck

maybe that's what i should wish for. better luck

[livingimpaired]

So it would seem.

With better luck, you would be able to sleep just as you want, too. It may actually be a better wish than sleep itself.

[ohrlyeh]

yes but isn't there the saying "be careful what you wish for?"

you can't just wish without caution

[livingimpaired]

There is, but why not be a little daring?

[ohrlyeh]

because the risk may not be worth the reward

[livingimpaired]

I suppose it might not.
But sometimes, it's good to risk something with the hope of a reward.
Still, saying that to you, I feel like that's casting a curse.

[ohrlyeh]

i have very little to risk

there's not much of worth in my life.

[livingimpaired]

I think your life has a lot of meaning, Howard.

[ohrlyeh]

how so?

[livingimpaired]

You enrich the lives of those around you. With a view that they normally would not be able to see on their own.

[ohrlyeh]

i highly doubt my life is enriching to anyone but you, kei

[livingimpaired]

I don't know if that is true. Just because I enjoy your talk doesn't mean others don't enjoy it as much as me.

[ohrlyeh]

only a rare few do i suppose

but i guess its because they have nothing better to do/they can deal with people like me better than others

[livingimpaired]

Perhaps that is the case.

But I think there is meaning in your view on life. I only share a little bit of it yet I find viewing things through your eyes to be always enlightening.

[ohrlyeh]

you're different

you're not like the rest, kei

that's why you find me enlightening. other people would just find me maddening

[livingimpaired]

[ Different. ]

I suppose.

But anyway.
I happen to find you some shade in that fishing village.
Please make good use of it until the goodwill that incited the shadow fades.