A wish.

[livingimpaired]

[ The Holy Grail. He does not recall exactly what it is, but from what he gathers from the brief memory with the "King of Heroes," it is something to wish upon. And Kei's other self would allow that man to "wish for death." What does that mean? No, he understands it simply, but there is more said and unsaid than he can unravel. ]

With all this business going on, some frivolousness ponderings might be an enjoyable distraction.

Well, then. If you could wish for anything, what would it be? [ A pause. Kei thinks of sending it like that yet he feels that may be too telling. Too telling of what? He's uncertain, but adds more to cover up his uncertainty. ] Though, with Valentine's Day is coming, most are thinking of just wishing for someone to spend that day with, hm? :)

Comments

[odasaku]

You can talk about my situation all you want, but my friends are a different matter, Kei Shigaraki.

[livingimpaired]

It is good you are willing to fight for something. I was worried you were incapable of becoming riled up, Sakutarou Oda.

You can fight for them but not yourself. You can feel righteous anger for them but not yourself? A man that only does for others and never himself; a man who carries his burdens but never lets anyone help despite the suffering they see -- are you really their friend?

[odasaku]

I believe I was clear. Stop talking about my friends like you know them.

[livingimpaired]

Perhaps, I shall. You want to fight for them and it is the first time that you sounded filled with something.

You care about them, obviously. But I will ask you to be THEIR friend and not have them just be YOURS. That is all. The situation you are in doesn't make you happy so why live in it?

[odasaku]

I'm pretty sure that I'm their friend. But if that isn't the case, then I can't force them to accept me as such.

I live in it because there's no other choice. I make the best of what I have, and live on. If you say I'm a sinking stone, then my friends are the waves that push me on the surface.

[livingimpaired]

I see. I got mad for the sake of someone else. It wasn't concern nor righteous anger. It was frustration even though I said I would accept someone living close to how I live so long as they were not suffering.

... I only know how I live but if you are not happy with it, you should change it.

[odasaku]

Your situation sounds more frustrating.

I'll see. It's not as easy as saying 'fuck it all' and starting my life over again.

[livingimpaired]

It isn't. Since it doesn't make me happy but it doesn't make me unhappy, I am fine in the state I am in. However, someone who can actually feel suffering in it -- sounds much more frustrating.

I wouldn't say it is starting your life over. It is giving up everything that got you to where you are now, after all. But I am saying, a little to lighten the load for yourself. Your happiness could actually exist without feeling like you sacrificed anything of yourself.

[odasaku]

I don't know. I just don't think that I'm unhappy either. Not happy, but not unhappy. If I can live with what I have, then isn't that fine?

[livingimpaired]

Sadly, I must repeat myself and say that I only know how I live.

I have only just come to this app, but I took my frustrations out on you. I felt if I was going to do so, and come to recognize it, that I should tell you as much. There is nothing that you did or didn't do. It is how it is but it isn't right.

Still if you think you are fine, then you are fine.

[odasaku]

I see. Thanks. Good luck with your own frustrations.

[livingimpaired]

Don't thank a person that was cagey toward you for no reason other than to force their frustrations out on you.

But I suppose I would also forgive and wish a person that treated me the same well in their endeavors, too. So, you are welcome, Sakutarou Oda.