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Has anyone seen this woman/is this woman in their memories?
[ the picture in question is a rather beautifully made sketch of the woman in front of an old victorian mirror and brushing her hair as the drawing; some might recognize the art style. ]
I just remembered this a little while ago and it isn’t mine, there’s no familiarity to it like the other ones and it’s a completely different person.
I don’t know how much of a problem this could be from Retrospec’s part, so has anyone else gotten memories from more than one person, or memories that aren’t from the same ones you’ve been getting?
[ the picture in question is a rather beautifully made sketch of the woman in front of an old victorian mirror and brushing her hair as the drawing; some might recognize the art style. ]
I just remembered this a little while ago and it isn’t mine, there’s no familiarity to it like the other ones and it’s a completely different person.
I don’t know how much of a problem this could be from Retrospec’s part, so has anyone else gotten memories from more than one person, or memories that aren’t from the same ones you’ve been getting?
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It happened once but it’s looking less likely that that’s the case now. I probably used to get memories from more than one person in the past life.
It was a rich life from what I remember from the room, the complete opposite of my usual memories. I didn’t have siblings in that life either, just an adopted sister.
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This makes the other you much more complex. Eren... may I ask what kind of life you lead? The small pieces I'm seeing don't make much of a cohesive story to me.
I assume from your wording, however, that your adopted sister looks nothing like you.
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I’ll fan out what I know and see if anything makes sense: The other me grew up behind a walled city with a population considered the last of humanity, protected from man eating monsters called titans outside them.
A sixty meter titan kicked down the wall one day, disappeared, and let them all in. An armored titan tackled the district’s second wall into the main one, then disappeared. I already wanted to be a soldier as a kid but losing everything was the last straw to really go for it. Became a soldier to kill every last one of those bastards at 15. That’s what I lived for.
Five years after the first, the same sixty meter titan appeared to kick down the second main wall. During the battle to push them back something happened, I might’ve almost died, or got eaten. I just know at some point I turned into a titan and fought against them.
The military started doing a lot of digging and that’s when we found out that those two titans were just like me. They were people, two of our own soldiers that infiltrated and wanted to take me back to their “hometown”. It was somewhere beyond the walls, and it didn’t make sense at first. Humanity was supposed to be nearly extinct.
I keep getting memories that just make things weirder. It’s in the point of view of a man who called himself The Owl, and he saved my father from an execution. It was near the ocean.
We grew up with oceans only in illegal story books, but I have a memory of the ocean, and I said “Freedom isn’t beyond the walls, it’s more enemies. It’s exactly as I saw it in my father’s memories”.
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As for receiving those memories that aren't yours, can you place them in your memories' timeline? Were any of them from early on in your other self's life? Or are they all after a certain point in that life?
I feel like if you only got them after a certain age or a certain focal point in your life or if you somehow received them all your life will be key in figuring out why you're getting those memories. I'm sorry your other life is so fraught with tragedy and tribulations.
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[ but this is why . . . talking about them with other people can be a good thing. he’s felt more than enough disaster surprises that he’d rather no longer have, or at least— be as prepared for them as possible. it’d be stupid to say that the past doesn’t affect him now, the powers and changes were proof.
there has to be something helpful in knowing as much about that life as possible. ]
You don’t need to apologize. It’s gone now. But thanks for this, Clover. It’s helping. I remembered a few more things since I put this post up, so it might help somewhat. Maybe not now but later.
> A man saved my father when he was younger. I saw this through the man’s eyes. He called himself The Owl and said “Watch and learn, Grisha. This is how you use the power of the Titans”. I wasn’t even born.
> My father injecting me with something when I was ten, except it’s in his point of view, not mine. I just remember seeing myself fall over after that. I got this exact memory a few months ago, but it was still in my point of view.
I have no clue about the woman’s memory, and I can’t really tell when I got them then. I was sitting in all of them I think. Or kneeling. It’s blurry.
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> Hopefully, being called The Owl has some meaning and isn't some frivolous title.
> How do titans become more aware? It sounds like the 60m titan that kicked down the wall had purpose and intelligence. When I came across you n the woods as a titan (I assume that was you because of what Prompto posted), you seemed to operate on instinct rather than intellect.
> If that injection wasn't a vaccine or an allergy shot, I don't know if I like your father.
That's at least three different point of views you have, not counting your own. I hope you don't have to receive any more. Trying to make sense of your own memories is difficult enough without having to parse 3+ more.
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> I think it’s a codename. He was dressed the same as the enemy and turned on them.
[ — shit, backpedal. he doesn’t remember that. ]
> First of all: Did I do anything to you? I don’t remember it too much. Just that It felt like I kept looping in a memory, or drowning in it. If I were really working on titan instinct I would’ve tried to eat you.
I don’t know if normal titans can become intellegent. That would mean they’re people. They’ve been dissected up and down for that.
[ there’s . . . no way. even if he’s heard that theory more than once. ]
The shot’s what gave me the shifting. If that’s really the case I should be thanking him somehow.
[ . . shouldn’t he–? ]
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Did your other father inform you of anything? Did he get your consent? I don't know how old you were when he gave you that shot, but it was a life-altering shot, so if you didn't know anything, that casts a shadow, not a light. You hated the titans in your other life, at least for the first 15 years of your life, and he made you become what you hated. That's what I understand from what you've told me.
Are the only intelligent titans the ones who've been injected with the shots? So how do the normal titans come to be? Have your memories answered that question?
As for doing anything to me, no, I escaped that predicament. You chased me and tried to... I suppose, if you were acting on instinct, it'd be hunting me down, but it's all right.
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I was ten when it happened. He said he couldn’t explain it to me then, and that I had to reach our basement to understand everything. I only didn’t hate myself because I didn’t have time to. They needed me.
I don’t know how to answer that one, though. There’s a huge hole that not even my other self knew. I’m guessing for a while, but it wasn’t forever.
. . . I was looking for someone, It wasn’t instinct. And I know I can’t do anything about it now, but it’s under control. It won’t happen again.
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[ She hates the sound of Eren's father and chooses to cut herself off beore addressing it because she's afraid she'll make the conversation devolve. She's angry but not angry enough to not know better. ]
Who were you looking for?
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but they don’t seem so extinct anymore. he’s not sure he wants to feed the possibility of an entire life being lied to.
for now, he holds off as well. for the best. he has a lot to think about already. ]
A female titan.
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I was probably just really confused when I found you.
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That's a huge loss. It must have been devastating.
Please don't worry about what happened with me. I don't hold any of it against you. I'm not that unreasonable.
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But, thanks for that. The best I can do now is complete reassurance that I have things under control now.
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He laid out most of his other self's history. Does she have it in her to be so unfair? ]
Was it something you could have helped?
I'm truly glad you have control. Control is important, and I trust you when you say that.
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I could’ve. I made the wrong call.
[ and then, shortly after: ]
With what?
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Of my sense of self. My morals. I don't have the full picture, but she is not kind.
[ Even now, she can't reconcile that she's supposed to be Four. ]
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You’ve got a strong sense of self. If I need to keep reminding you like Elliot did with me, I will.
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How long has she spent idolizing her sisters? How long has she spent imitating them in one way or another? How long has she spent trying to be her own self? It's too long and not long enough. ]
You're lucky to have someone like Elliot at your side.
You may have to. I may need it.