backdated 3/7

[livingimpaired]

My eBay account got suspended.

I have not used eBay in awhile so I guess I don't know the proper protocol for someone outbidding you for a cursed doll. Cursed with either a violent curse or a child's soul. The seller didn't specify.

It is not proper etiquette to e-mail the person you were bidding against and ask them to sell it to you rather than use it for their BuzzFeed article. Or let them be aware that you were honestly hoping it had some soul trapped in it to give it to friends in the hope that it will come to life in the middle of the night to do whatever cursed dolls do.

Who knew. I thought we were both cursed doll enthusiasts.

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[playdolls]

I bet the look on her face was great.

You're not so terrible, don't be so dramatic.

[livingimpaired]

Perhaps.

But if one of the people that you liked said that to you, would you not think that they were terrible? That the relationship and thoughts you had built up about them turned out to be a misunderstanding on your part? That the moment you admit you might care for them as a friend, they calmly say your existence does not matter to them?

Do you truly not see anything terrible?

[playdolls]

There are worse things in the world than hurt feelings.

[livingimpaired]

Indeed, but no one should make another feel as though their life is worth nothing. All life has meaning, after all.

[playdolls]

Now that's ridiculous.

[livingimpaired]

I am a bizarre man with bizarre opinions.

[playdolls]

How can you tell me all life matters after telling me nothing matters to you.

[livingimpaired]

That was when I was a teenager.
My immaturity was abundant and looking back on my actions, I only feel shame.
Furthermore, just because nothing matters to me doesn't mean that it doesn't matter.

[playdolls]

Some lives matter a lot more. They're not all equally important.

Who cares about that girl. She just liked you for your face anyway.

[livingimpaired]

Perhaps.
Different lives have different meanings.
But that means that you know those whose lives matter more than others, hm?

So?
Does her youthful reasoning mean that she doesn't matter?

[playdolls]

I'm at my leisure to like whoever I want. If my King were here, I wouldn't be.

Why would anyone care about some weepy little girl...

[livingimpaired]

Your king?

Because she is more than just that single moment that I knew and spoke to her.

[playdolls]

My king. He's the most powerful creature out there. I was born to protect him.

It'd be nice, to have something that important to do, instead of just getting jerked around by Retrospec all the time.

If you care so much why don't you go apologize to her and take her out, sheesh.

[livingimpaired]

Why were you born to protect him if he is the most powerful being?

Because it was over twenty years ago.
I barely remember her name or face.
I only now remember the words of our conversation, and the understanding as to why she sought me out in the first place.

[playdolls]

Because he shouldn't be bothered with stupid things. He should be eating, conquering, breeding.

[One obvious answer for another. ]

[livingimpaired]

Is that fulfilling for you, though?
Your existence then purely becomes doing what he finds stupid.
Do you not wish for more?

[playdolls]

Only when I'm feeling human. Which seems like a problem that will solve itself.

[livingimpaired]

Forgive me for saying so, but I think your life is worth more.

[playdolls]

Of course you do.

[livingimpaired]

It's already shown to be far too interesting to be designated being the maid to someone else.
King or no.

[playdolls]

I'm a royal guard, not a maid.

[livingimpaired]

You're handling the mess he doesn't want to be bothered with when he is capable.

[playdolls]

[ FUUUUUUUUUUUUU ]

I don't remember caring what you thought about it.

[livingimpaired]

Then it is fine for me to think of you as deserving more than being a King's maid.

[playdolls]

It doesn't even matter. He's not here. I can do whatever I want.