005. Text // my world is unaffected

[manufactured]

It's been some time since Retrospec has properly dropped some sort of identity crisis on us, though I suppose it's good to know that we're getting a bit more information out of them now than we were in the past; I'm in no way looking down on small favors and silver linings. Just the same, I wonder for the time being where that leaves us - I know I've asked a few of you about this in the past, and I'm sure that a fair amount of you have made your decisions regarding it since.

I suppose what I want to hear is your thoughts on these people you're receiving memories of, whether you consider them "you" or otherwise - do you still think of them as a separate person from yourself or do you consider them to be the same as "you", and why you've come to feel that way. I'm not going to argue for feeling one way or another on the matter, I'm just wondering how you've come to see these people that technically don't exist anymore.

Of course, if you reject this entire matter completely and just consider this to be an example of some corporate entity you hate ruining your life for no apparent reason, that's likewise fair.

I've formed my own views on this fairly recently; I tend to find it calming, having some sort of conclusion that I can accept as reasonably true for the time being. It's not always convenient, but it's calming.

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[stressweets]

I can't be the same person in my memories, because he's a lot more confident and rich and talented and everything than I am?
But I want to be!
Ah, within reason, I guess. I'm still not really interested in what he was learning, and he had completely different friends...
Personality-wise though, I think I'd be really happy. Even if I've been told that I'm perfectly fine the way I am... It's not really how I want to be.

[ It'd be nice if he could stop being such a nervous, anxious mess around people and fucking up perfectly good moments, after all. The him in his memories doesn't seem to have that issue at all. ]

[manufactured]

The person in your memories seems to have overcome all of what you perceive as flaws, then? Or perhaps never seemed to be contending with them in the first place... Is that it?

[stressweets]

That's right!
Or if he still has those flaws, then he just deals with them a lot better...

[ ...Tsukasa has not really gotten to the legitimate issues of his other self yet, which mainly lay in "I don't ask people for help, even for really important things, because I don't want to be a bother/it isn't any of their business/I should be able to handle this much" despite

you know

being an entirely too nosy brat.

He... knows Suou isn't completely infallible, but he still seems way better than his current self in a lot of ways, so. ]

That might be because my memories have been relatively...
Tame? Some really gross imagery one of the people in my memories've said aside. "Squeezing the pus out" and stuff like that.
I even played with cats once ♪ They were super cute kittens!!

[manufactured]

...I don't actively compare my memories to others' just on principle, but I actually envy the kittens.

[stressweets]

That sounds like a good principle to have...
Is it hard to stick to it?

[manufactured]

It is, but my memories tend to be some of the rougher ones, from what I've heard.

[stressweets]

Oh, I'm sorry.

[ .... ]

When you say "rougher," what do you mean...?

[manufactured]

[...Tsukasa, honey, you're gonna wish we had kept talking about the kittens eventually.]

In terms of violence and unfortunate things happening on a rather widespread scale.

I wasn't a terribly pleasant person.

[stressweets]

[ Oh. ]

Oh.
Are you a better person now?
No that's rude to ask or assume you aren't one I'm sorry.

[manufactured]

[...HONEY...]

Don't worry, no offense was taken.

I like to think I'm a much better person now, though, yes.

[stressweets]

[ HE'S TRYING. ]

Then that's what matters, right? Here, at least. ♪
Though that's probably a little like... stepping over the bar in the ground, if it's really awful.

[manufactured]

At least it isn't burying it further, I suppose.