005. Text // my world is unaffected

[manufactured]

It's been some time since Retrospec has properly dropped some sort of identity crisis on us, though I suppose it's good to know that we're getting a bit more information out of them now than we were in the past; I'm in no way looking down on small favors and silver linings. Just the same, I wonder for the time being where that leaves us - I know I've asked a few of you about this in the past, and I'm sure that a fair amount of you have made your decisions regarding it since.

I suppose what I want to hear is your thoughts on these people you're receiving memories of, whether you consider them "you" or otherwise - do you still think of them as a separate person from yourself or do you consider them to be the same as "you", and why you've come to feel that way. I'm not going to argue for feeling one way or another on the matter, I'm just wondering how you've come to see these people that technically don't exist anymore.

Of course, if you reject this entire matter completely and just consider this to be an example of some corporate entity you hate ruining your life for no apparent reason, that's likewise fair.

I've formed my own views on this fairly recently; I tend to find it calming, having some sort of conclusion that I can accept as reasonably true for the time being. It's not always convenient, but it's calming.

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[manufactured]

...I'm fairly sure I understand on all counts, actually.

[Both the whole...duty-bound obligation and the self-loathing, honestly.]

[twostringsonebow]

[As the kids say, "mood".]

Well then. Always nice to know others can understand. I know someone else who does as well, and we became close as a result.

[thank god for sena.]

Have any tips for dealing with it? Other than, well, dealing with it.

[manufactured]

Ensure that you have people that will help you make sure that the same mistakes aren't repeated, for one thing.

[twostringsonebow]

I'm not sure I would ever make the mistakes he did in the first place, but I'm set anyway in that case.

What's been your opinion on the question posed to everyone else? Besides understand how I feel on a few key points; is it calming to reconcile that you're essentially the same souls in a different existence, with second chances or whatever people might say, or is it something else?

[manufactured]

It is, simply because my previous life was...highly unfortunate with regards to several key points. I wouldn't say the second chance is at all deserved, because it's surely not, but I do find it pleasant, in a way, to have opportunities that I never would have back then. I want to know what I'm like when granted those opportunities, and what my potential actually is without extenuating circumstances complicating things.

I suppose it comes down to a matter of proving that my memories aren't the result of some sort of inherent trait.

[twostringsonebow]

[... He sort of wants to know what Wesker's memories are like, if they're something unforgivable like his, but at the same time he's not entirely sure he wants to share himself. Hasn't quite reached the level where he uses casual humor to cope yet either.]

That's a good way to look at it. I've been trying to think of a way to put my feelings on the matter, and I think you've nailed it. Thank you.

[manufactured]

[Mm.]

Of course.

If you're ever interested in discussing it, I've offered to do so for people before; I've found it beneficial, in the past, to have people do the same for me. Should you have any questions that you would prefer answered over a more private channel of communication, that's likewise fine.

[twostringsonebow]

[... Having people outside the situation to talk to is nice, since they're dwindling as is, and Wesker has always been an impartial man in his eyes; Goro takes a little bit to respond, debating on if he wants to say anything now or simply thank the man and do it at another point of time.

Eventually, though.]

I'll be certain to take you up on that. The people I've spoken to are more around my age, and maybe having someone older hear me out may result in something more ultimately satisfying... or simply echo the things I've heard already. Which would be nice in its own way, since I can't say I'm completely convinced or want to hear it from them.

[manufactured]

[He doesn't particularly expect anything now; this is sort of yelling it into the void, after all.]

Whenever you like, then.