005. Text // my world is unaffected

[manufactured]

It's been some time since Retrospec has properly dropped some sort of identity crisis on us, though I suppose it's good to know that we're getting a bit more information out of them now than we were in the past; I'm in no way looking down on small favors and silver linings. Just the same, I wonder for the time being where that leaves us - I know I've asked a few of you about this in the past, and I'm sure that a fair amount of you have made your decisions regarding it since.

I suppose what I want to hear is your thoughts on these people you're receiving memories of, whether you consider them "you" or otherwise - do you still think of them as a separate person from yourself or do you consider them to be the same as "you", and why you've come to feel that way. I'm not going to argue for feeling one way or another on the matter, I'm just wondering how you've come to see these people that technically don't exist anymore.

Of course, if you reject this entire matter completely and just consider this to be an example of some corporate entity you hate ruining your life for no apparent reason, that's likewise fair.

I've formed my own views on this fairly recently; I tend to find it calming, having some sort of conclusion that I can accept as reasonably true for the time being. It's not always convenient, but it's calming.

Comments

[vitis]

yeah?
can't say i know what it's like for you, but
sometimes i do wonder what it'd be like to stop holding on so tightly and just let go

[manufactured]

Do you find that you can't, for whatever reason?

[vitis]

a few reasons
too many people counting on me, for one

[ i mean it's also a "go directly to jail do not pass go, do not collect $200" issue, but ]

[manufactured]

Are there many others here from the same world you were from, then? Or is it something else?

[vitis]

there are many others from that world he was from, too many

but that's not it, no
maybe it's the sort of thing where you have friends relying on you
so you have no choice but, for their sakes, to keep it together

that make sense?

[manufactured]

Absolutely.

[vitis]

yeah
it's stupid to think about, because there's no stopping it if that's the case
but sometimes there's this teeny tiny worry retrospec will make that choice for me

like one day i'll wake up
and i just won't really care about those bonds anymore

[manufactured]

Given how many changes tend to be given to us whether we want them or not...perhaps it's pointless to think about it, yes, but that doesn't make the concern any less fair.

[vitis]

i suppose so

[manufactured]

I generally just tell those that are concerned with that sort of thing to keep your differences close - to bear in mind what separates you from the person you're remembering. Other than that, there isn't much to be done about it.

[vitis]

i don't have to be that person, we're different
i don't have to be that person, we're different

it's a nice mantra