005. Text // my world is unaffected

[manufactured]

It's been some time since Retrospec has properly dropped some sort of identity crisis on us, though I suppose it's good to know that we're getting a bit more information out of them now than we were in the past; I'm in no way looking down on small favors and silver linings. Just the same, I wonder for the time being where that leaves us - I know I've asked a few of you about this in the past, and I'm sure that a fair amount of you have made your decisions regarding it since.

I suppose what I want to hear is your thoughts on these people you're receiving memories of, whether you consider them "you" or otherwise - do you still think of them as a separate person from yourself or do you consider them to be the same as "you", and why you've come to feel that way. I'm not going to argue for feeling one way or another on the matter, I'm just wondering how you've come to see these people that technically don't exist anymore.

Of course, if you reject this entire matter completely and just consider this to be an example of some corporate entity you hate ruining your life for no apparent reason, that's likewise fair.

I've formed my own views on this fairly recently; I tend to find it calming, having some sort of conclusion that I can accept as reasonably true for the time being. It's not always convenient, but it's calming.

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[manufactured]

I don't think it's likely. Possible, but not necessarily probable.

[dejerate]

You don't? Why not?

[manufactured]

Again, circumstances are different here. I don't think the exact same incident will happen again, because things haven't aligned that way; I know that much. Committing the same act isn't something I would want for myself, nor is it something I would want for the rest of you - and it would be something that would affect the rest of you.

I can't guarantee that I won't try to do anything, however, and I'm aware of some unfortunate tendencies I have. If I act, it won't be through malice this time, but it doesn't ensure that nothing will happen at all. I want to prevent that sort of thinking and the desire to take drastic action in that sort of way.

[dejerate]

Something that would affect the rest of us?

If not out of malice than what? Some well-intentioned attempt to help that fucks up? I know for me -- the other me, I remember making a contract with a demon, so. I get it? Kind of.

[manufactured]

"Well-intentioned" is one way of putting it, I suppose.

Why did you make a contract like that, however?

[dejerate]

Look. I dunno whatever happened, what you did. Or what you might do. I'm just guessing.

But it was to take advantage of the demon's power. To be able to fight the vampires. Apparently.

[manufactured]

I see.

As for my own actions...back then, it was an attempt at destroying the world. I had my reasons for doing such, though I won't try to pretend they were noble. Either way, it isn't something I hide from people.

[dejerate]

Destroying the world? Seriously?

[manufactured]

Yes.

Closer, perhaps, to "destroying all the people in it", but the sentiment is the same.

[dejerate]

So, the same as that virus then, back home. That didn't do anything to the buildings, just killed a lot of humanity when that outbreak happened.

Or, I guess after enough time without any maintenance, buildings might need repairs or whatever, but. I get the idea.

[manufactured]

It would have been something like that, yes. Not everyone would have died, but there would have been very few left.

[dejerate]

Very few. Yeah, it was mostly just the kids that survived? At least back in the Japan in my memories. From what I can gather so far, anyway.