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[vendettastool]

Yoon-sung Lee April 13 near Enprise

For all those that have been enjoying the Lost Fantasy series, good news: That rain of mail? Had some info from the mother ship regarding what's coming next. I think some people will be happy with this; no more stuck trying to get the Wolf Knight or Dragon Lord quests done. Stay tune while we work on some serious upgrades. But really, this is just an excuse for me to just babble. I've just realized it's been a year or more of this Retrospec nonsense and while I appreciate meeting all the people on here, it also feels a little hollow. Hollow? 내면이 서투른 손으로 비워졌다? No, empty. There are things that that other life faces and does that I could never do. As my PA says, it's like I am living a melo's hero life in those pieces of history. He does things that - jerk that I am - would never do... Which leads me to this question in the middle of the night: Is it nature that shapes a life, or is it nurturing? Which do you think drove your past self and their choices?

[ooc; fail!korean translations is: My insides have been emptied by clumsy hands.]

Comments

[standalonehuman]

You know where I fall on these memories, for the most part. But to shape my answer to the question being asked? What you do is more important than who you are, or how you were born. It's why I can't just accept the idea that we and the people we're remembering are one and the same. We've lived different lives, made different choices, had different experiences. Which makes each of us unique.

Whatever you started out as, it's what you've done since then that has shaped who you are now.

[drydrown]

It's fairly difficult for me to say, given that I don't think I've remembered enough to really know what was going through my past life's head at any given time. But seeing as he seemed to have no real plan outside of pointless violence, I somewhat hope it's more of a nurture thing, simply because I like to think of myself as a civilized human being.

[vendettastool]

I suppose that's true, even though a part of me wonders. I find it a little weird the way he switches from one extreme to another. I'm not sure how he managed to retain any normality.

[vendettastool]

My other's life was one of violence and yet he had lines he did not cross. It might be something you haven't gotten yet that made your other go into the mindless violence. There should be a reason for that kind of life, right?

[courageofheart]

My life as a mouse and my life now are so similar its scaring me.

[drydrown]

There should be, but there isn't always. I suppose I'm more wondering if I'm one of the exceptions that makes me have to add that latter clause.

[vendettastool]

Or you got burned so many times by compassion that you decided to never take that chance again.

[vendettastool]

How so? I would expect some differences between the two, right?

[angealwings]

Why does it have to be nature *or* nurture? The two of them combined is the most reasonable answer, every time I have heard that question.

[negativism]

Boss, isn't it a bit late to bust out the existential questions?

[courageofheart]

My children have different names and I never had to meet a giant scary animal to ask what to do, but my son having very serious pneumonia and going to my husband Jonathans friends to ask for help is all the same.

[vendettastool]

That's kinda weird in a way. I mean, having it happen in both lives is a little odd, you would think, right?

Also, do you need help? With your son's illness or anything?

[vendettastool]

Is it though? Aren't there certain people who were just born evil? Or does it feel that is a crop out?

[vendettastool]

Not really. It's not like I need much brain power to watch the system as it goes through unpacking a new mod for the event.

[thisloveisjustice]

I'll take door three, because even after almost a year of this, I still don't really know what it is that is motivating his choices. But if I had to take a guess, nurture, in the sense that there was a specific event that led to the path he took in his life.

[angealwings]

Do you know such people? Outside of fiction?

I'm not doubting you, merely asking, since I myself do not, and so can't answer the questions very well without that.

[negativism]

Still.

Just don't bottle it up with this, got it? Bad enough I have to remind others about it.

[drydrown]

Perhaps in your case.

[vendettastool]

Me? No, why would I?

[vendettastool]

No, not really, but I usually don't mingle with people under a certain price tag on them.

[vendettastool]

Why? You want to hear the weird stuff I've gotten lately?

[vendettastool]

I think we have a similar idea then with how mine has been going. I sometimes find it odd though, some of the actions he does he checks himself before doing them. Like two halves having a conversation or something.

[angealwings]

[ Ha. Ha, ha, ha. Meet somebody who's way below most price tags. ]

So their existence is nothing more than a theory and so the likelihood that people who seem irredeemable are a mix of their natural disposition and their circumstances is rather high?

[vendettastool]

[ Say hello to a third generation chaebol, which means he has money and will run a conglomerate when he grows up. Oops? ]

Well, considering the way people switch around here, we really can't say it will never happen. Some of the memories someone might get back might actually be them just being born evil.

[thisloveisjustice]

Checks himself before doing them? How do you mean?Like he starts to react to something, has a brief moment where he recognizes he could do something else, but then continues with the original reaction?

[angealwings]

[ He's not the one claiming to not mingle with the likes of the other? ]

No, we can't say that it may never happen with certainty. But the majority of evidence that I am aware of is that, on the whole, a mixture of factors determines what kind of a person anyone will be, not, on the whole, any single one.

[negativism]

It's not a matter of wanting to in this case. You've heard me vent about weird dragon stuff, you get your turn now.

[courageofheart]

He had pneumonia when he was little I mean but yes! Maybe? He has that strange curse and its made him so sick. He wont let any doctors near so Im worried sick.

[vendettastool]

A strange curse? I can understand him not wanting to see any doctors, I mean we are kind of off the grid when it comes to medicine for us, but is there any hint on how to cure it? I could help with any bills, but knowing where to start would be a bonus.

[vendettastool]

[ Not really his choosing, only that's just what is expected of him. ]

Now I am confused. Which is easy to do just ask anyone. But basically, we are a lot of things including what we want to be and what we grew up knowing, even our past selves, right?

[vendettastool]

Thanks. I'll talk to you off this thing.

Also. A letter came from Father. Been putting off opening it but will do later with you around. Be prepared.

[vendettastool]

More like he starts to do something, stops and then decides on a nicer method than his immediately reaction. He's cold about it too.

[thisloveisjustice]

Huh. I kind of know what you mean. My guy's done something like that too. Though, he checked himself mostly because there were a bunch of other cops around.

[angealwings]

[ Still. Not something that Andrew would have known, had it not been brought up. ]

Mixed with genetic predispositions, probably, to one degree or another.

[vendettastool]

I think he checks himself because he doesn't want to cross a line. I don't know. There's an anger to him and he just refuses to let it get in control.

[vendettastool]

You think genetics also have something to do with how we are?

[angealwings]

I think most of us have predispositions. Nature, in your terms. But, other than some absurdly extreme situations, those predispositions get affected by our lives. Encouraged, curbed, redirected. So the sum of it all is nature *and* nurture, combined. That's all.

[thisloveisjustice]

I think other-me could have taken a lesson from other-you in that.