demotivational poster

[informantic]

Heigo Miyake 4/17 near Apprassage

Impromptu poll: Which do you actually regret most? a) The things you've done b) The things you haven't done c) Literally everything because your unparalleled ability to fuck things up renders the choices you make in regards to your actions moot Relatedly, I hate inspirational quotes.

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[vitis]

i see
well, looks like we might have different standards there to begin with, but sure

[informantic]

We must. Having no regrets whatsoever, or at least faking it well enough that it sounds plausible, is much more impressive in my books.

[vitis]

hey, thanks!
either i do hell of a job or it doesn't take much to convince you of that sorta thing

[informantic]

You do have an admirably carefree way about you. Even when it's frustrating, it's admirable.

[Heigo, stop. He's nearly gushing over here.]

[vitis]

ohhh stop
you're gonna make me blush over here

[ —facetiously, even if he is? sort of complimented by that.

... and granted the last time he remembers turning red was as a result of being amazingly ticked off at someone, but still. ]

[informantic]

Just wanted to make it clear that I'm not suggesting your life is easier than mine in any way, or whatever weighs on you any lighter.

Come to think of it, I don't know very much about you at all.

[vitis]

you think so?

but well, i'd try to be an open book
a burning question every strike you, i'm here for it

[ "try": just, you know. there are those off-limits subjects. ]

[informantic]

Well...

To start with, I don't know how old you are.

[vitis]

oh, that's an easy one
bet you could make an educated guess

[informantic]

23...?

[That carefree nature Heigo admires so much borders on nihilism a lot of the time, which is a quality he recognizes from his late college days - all the miserable, brooding teens who didn't react to adulthood by grumpily shouldering its weight, melting down under it and disappearing from society, or lashing out against it tended to wind up like John, at least for awhile.]

[vitis]

close enough, i'm almost there
i'm 22, though

[informantic]

[There's one thing Heigo obviously wants to ask more than any other, but true to his "doing the thing isn't always better than not doing the thing if you only ever do stupid things" theme with this post, he's not quite at the point of asking it yet.]

Did you grow up in Recolle or anywhere nearby?

[vitis]

nope
grew up on a farm in oklahoma
roadtripped on over here to the oh so great city of recolle in the latter half of '16

[informantic]

Oklahoma... I've always wondered where that bit of lilt in your speech comes from.

[But unsurprisingly, Heigo the first-generation immigrant isn't so hot on the idea of asking about a person's accent outright.

What about his real question? Is he hot on asking that yet?]

Do you live with anyone here? Roommate, partner?

[Close enough.]

[vitis]

[ ... and john's utterly, completely clueless ]

sure do!
i have a roommate, he's not on retrospec and hasn't ever been, but he's a pretty nice guy even if we're a bit distant
after living with my family for so long, i've kinda realized that living alone would've been a bit tougher for me haha

[informantic]

That must make for a strange living situation. Do you just - not tell him about anything that's happening in your life? I'm sure he'd try to have you committed if you did, nice guy or otherwise.

[vitis]

no, i don't.
but that's okay. we can talk about other stuff, it doesn't have to involve retrospec all the time. not sure if i'd want it to involve that all the time, either

[informantic]

Still, I hope you have people you *can* talk to about it.

[vitis]

just talking about whatever can't help everyone

[informantic]

True enough. What *does* help you?

[vitis]

standard stress relief stuff?

[informantic]

Well, I know I haven't always been the most enthusiastic company for stress relief, but

[Is he gonna do it...]

If there are any other methods you'd rather do with company, you know where to find me.

[vitis]

[ that's.. such a heigo way of saying... whatever he is saying, that john has to laugh a bit. ]

so you're good for any other methods of non standard stress relief that i'd rather do with company
got it

[informantic]

[And that's such a John way of giving no indication of whether or not he picked up on Heigo's true meaning that...

... well, he may never find out what Heigo's usually trying to say if an unrelated third party doesn't step in to translate.]

I was trying to be supportive, but it just sounds artificial and roundabout when you repeat it like that.

[vitis]

no
i do appreciate that, so thank you