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[promisedyou]

Hararon, everyone~! ☆

I'm posting this a little early to see if I can get any hits. I know it's been a pretty rough month with the hallucinations (I'm not the only one seeing those, right?) and the weird dreams and the possible idea of 'falsified memories' and bodyswapping, but there's a few important things I want to talk about, so please take me seriously for once, alright? ☆

First of all: I want to double check-- is there anyone willing to work with me as a psychologist? Of course, I'm willing to pay if that's a necessity. I did hear there's someone out there before, but with things as they are right now, I want to make absolutely certain that they're willing to work with me. Just give me a heads up if you're willing and we can discuss times and dates.

Second of all: I'm also looking for a roommate or honestly, just a place to stay, since I'm moving out of the house on Friday. Of course, I have a few stipulations. I'm looking for females only (unless you're a woman who's going to flirt with me, then don't even offer!! I'm taken!!!) unless you're offering to let me stay with like, a family or something. I'm willing to of course do the chores - cooking, cleaning, you name it - as necessary. And obviously I can pay, but I'd like to negotiate pricing and all that. I'm pretty willing to compromise, so let's have a fun chat, okay? ★

Last but not least... I did look at job offers, but I do want to see if any of you guys have any open availability anywhere so I can see what's out there.

And that should be it, I think. Oh, but I guess I should add a little question that's irrelevant to top things off: do you think it's a bad idea to look up the history of a historical figure that you might think you might be? Or one of your friends or family might be?

Comments

[thesettingsun]

Everyone dies eventually. There's only so good of an ending you can expect.

[promisedyou]

That's true, but... the way they die sometimes hurts. It hurts a lot. And I'm scared they're going to remember their death and I... don't want that.

[thesettingsun]

I know. Trust me, I know how bad it is.

But whether you know in advance or not, there isn't anything you can do to keep them from remembering. The best thing you can do is be there for them when it happens.

[promisedyou]

I wish there was a way to make it stop.

I want to be there for him when it does happen. But I don't want him to remember it to begin with. He's already dealt with enough.

[thesettingsun]

Accepting that you can't control that is the hardest thing. Maybe even harder than remembering dying.

[promisedyou]

Yeah.

Especially when it's for someone who's really important to you. To be honest, if I could... I'd rather take that memory of his for myself, you know. But I can't do that, so I just have to support him when I can.

[thesettingsun]

I know that feeling. But I'm pretty sure our important people would just as gladly take our bad memories for themselves, so. It wouldn't make them happy.

[promisedyou]

... yeah.

I know. I wouldn't want him to have my bad memories, even though he's seen some of them already.

[thesettingsun]

They're good people and they love us, so it shouldn't really be surprising... But I have to remind myself sometimes.

[promisedyou]

I definitely get that.

It's hard.

[thesettingsun]

Somehow I feel like almost everything about this is hard.

[promisedyou]

To be honest... yeah. It really is. But I think that we'll somehow power through, even if it is difficult.

[thesettingsun]

We will. I know we will. I gave up crying over it months ago.