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Elda Marker ([personal profile] matchbreaker) wrote in [community profile] retrospec2018-08-16 05:37 pm

Texts from Late Night

[ Posted sometime around like four in the morning: ]

Has anyone else found themselves falling in love with someone in those memories we all get? That might feel a little extreme, but the face has been sticking with me for a while now.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-17 07:46 am (UTC)(link)
No, you don't need to thank me. It was a while ago, but talking to you helped me put things into perspective.

So you've remembered all of the key points in her life... It's no wonder you have strong feelings about it. It would be hard to remember something as significant as a proposal and not feel anything, since all of our memories are in first person.

I mean... I was only dating the person in my memories, so it's not as intense as having a whole family. But I don't think it's strange to feel love toward someone like that. We're remembering what our other selves loved about them, after all.

Sorry if I'm typing too much. This hits home in a lot of ways.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-18 08:12 am (UTC)(link)
On the other hand, I might be too fast. Since I'm deaf, I do a lot of my communicating through typing on my phone and showing the screen to people, so I'm probably faster (and more wordy) than most. Please take your time.

That's exactly the same for me, though. Even with the gaps in memory, seeing everything through his (my, if you want to go that route) eyes is what gets me the most. His feelings come across too genuinely for me to really feel like it's a hallucination.

If it's okay to ask, is your personality similar to the way it was in your memories? My memory self is a lot like... well, me. So when someone came along who said such kind things, things that apply to me as I am now, it's easy to blur those lines. If it's the same for you, I definitely know where you're coming from.

Don't worry, though. It isn't painful. I just wish I could meet him and thank him for everything, you know?
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-21 09:32 am (UTC)(link)
I see. So in other words, you have a lot of her core personality traits, but her experiences were different. No wonder you can't separate yourself from it. I'm the same, but still... it's a lot to process.

James sounds like a good person. When someone treats you like that, even if it's in your memories, it's hard to actually think of them like a stranger. I've never met any of the people in my memories in this life, so maybe it would be different if I did. But I keep thinking about what I would do if I could meet him.

Don't worry, it's not that big of a deal. Thankfully, I can read lips pretty well. So as long as people don't mind repeating themselves sometimes and using gestures every so often, I can usually get by being the only one typing while people speak to me normally.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-23 04:43 am (UTC)(link)
I only really know the details of my situation and those of my close friends, but none of them seem that far in age from their memory selves. I'm still a college student in most of my memories, and several of my friends that are my age have memories from around their high school years. But significantly older doesn't seem very common, though I don't think it's a bad thing.

So you're like me in that respect too. It's the kind of thing we won't be able to fully understand unless it happens, but since some people can be so different, expecting them to be like the way we remember them could definitely spell trouble. But wouldn't keeping quiet be hard too?

For better or worse, I'm not the most social guy, so it does drain me after a while. Communicating through text like this is much easier for me.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-29 05:54 am (UTC)(link)
That's how I feel too. No matter how difficult it would be, keeping everything locked in would be the most reasonable way to approach it. I'm used to holding my emotions back, so I envy people like you, in a way. But if things turned out like that, I think my reaction would depend on the person and how they responded to me.

I'm coming up on a year now too. It's hard to go this long without considering things like that, especially when you're remembering important people.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-30 12:21 am (UTC)(link)
In that case, I can only hope I reach that point someday (to some extent).

I only have my own experience to go off of, but Retrospec has made me think a lot harder than just about anything else in my life. And that's saying a lot, since I get lost in my own head and think things through too much sometimes. There are just so many facets - people on the network, those that don't have it, memories, souls, reincarnations (?), physical and emotional changes... there's so much.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-31 03:27 am (UTC)(link)
No kidding. I've only been to Pesgare, but even then, just hearing everyone's stories is enough for a lifetime. And seeing superpowers in person, on top of that.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-31 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
I think I'd enjoy it too. What do you like about it? The atmosphere?
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-31 06:44 am (UTC)(link)
Craftsmanship? I'll have to go sometime when I have time off. If you've never been to Pesgare, I'd recommend checking it out too. There are lots of wares and handmade crafts and things like that.
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[personal profile] sunnyspot 2018-08-31 07:14 am (UTC)(link)
That changes things. If sunlight is a problem, Pesgare probably isn't the place you want to be.

How about Bosuma? I've never been there either, but it looks interesting.