Texts from Late Night

[matchbreaker]

[ Posted sometime around like four in the morning: ]

Has anyone else found themselves falling in love with someone in those memories we all get? That might feel a little extreme, but the face has been sticking with me for a while now.

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[matchbreaker]

To be honest, I'd find it more unsettling to just watch it all as a movie or something. That'd make me feel more distanced from the whole thing and like I was hallucinating a lot.

[ A beat ]

So how do you mean creepy?

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[adoringpast]

yeah, but you'd be watching a movie starring yourself fucking things up
so it's still just as bad to experience it all again

[ nnnnnnnn. sweats nervously ]

past me wanted this boy to be his oniichan so badly even though they're not related
he was forcefeeding the poor guy at one point
idk how anyone could top that

private;

[matchbreaker]

[ . . . ]

Honestly, I can think of several worse things? I'm not downplaying it, of course, but I'm not sure you need to put yourself or himself down that much.

It is unsettling though, wow.

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[adoringpast]

yeah, i know
i just didn't expect that level of obsessiveness, i guess?
and from my perspective, that doesn't look like love at all
but the emotions i'm getting from my past self whenever i get a memory like that feels just like it
it's hard to explain since you can get all sorts of answers when you ask a bunch of people what love is, anyway

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[matchbreaker]

Oh no, I'm sure it is quite confusing.

Golly though, yeah, being obsessed with a love where you want them to have a specific role on top of it all seems a little much. But then, I suppose we all want something like that. ]

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[adoringpast]

i mean, i do think loving someone that much would be unhealthy as hell
but being the object of that kind of affection, so long as it doesn't destroy them... it'd be really nice to experience that

though that's the story for another day
you've probably been through as much teenage drama as the rest of us, miss marker, so im not going to expound any further

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[matchbreaker]

Oh I have, but it's been a *long* time since those days. It's a little bit nostalgic, honestly! Plus I don't think my drama from back then was near as strange as I see people go through these days.

That's probably just that memories blur over time. What you remember ends up being the feelings and the broad strokes more than the details.