tw: suicide mentions in comments

[thesettingsun]

hey quick question
anyone else remember a (near) death experience and keep feeling like they're dying
even after the memory is over

it's not a panic attack mine are different

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[sleepingknight]

It's the best time for chocolate.

[This is actually pretty much any time, really, but especially when you're feeling down. She's an expert on these things, you see.

But eventually the special ends, and she's looking over at Shuji again.]

Should we fire up another one?

[thesettingsun]

If you don't mind... I don't, um, want to keep you too long.

[This feels like something he should be able to deal with by himself. He knows there's nothing wrong with him.]

[sleepingknight]

[She just waves a hand nonchalantly, clicking ahead to the next video with her other.]

Nah, it's fine. I'm taking a break from the missions anyway.

Besides, whenever I felt sick, people would always drop things to play games with me. So think of it as kind of... paying it forward, I guess?

[thesettingsun]

...The first time monsters showed up, I didn't have my scythe yet or any way to fight, so I hid in my boyfriend's apartment for the whole month. I did what I could - dogsat for a friend going on missions, helped people with riddles, learned to cook - but I remember feeling completely useless then.

[Shuji looks at the floor rather than at the video.]

I didn't realize until later how important stuff like that is. Even if it doesn't seem like it means as much as going into secret labs and smashing Vanderweele's stuff.

So - thank you, is what I was trying to say.

[sleepingknight]

[She listens to him speak, not really paying the video any mind at the moment. Her smile softens as he does, and her gaze never quite goes back to the screen.]

...Yeah. Even if it's just one less thing to worry about, it's still one whole thing off of someone's plate. Plus, your mental health can seriously affect your physical health, so...

[She scratches a little at her cheek before breaking into a grin.]

Well, I guess what I'm trying to say is, you're welcome!

[thesettingsun]

Don't I know it. [about mental health affecting physical health.] But this really helps.

If you do need someone to smash stuff for you, just let me know.

[sleepingknight]

Heheheh, I'll be sure to! But right now, it's looking like I'll be able to dive bomb things from above!

[She's still (unsure) about the whole being a fairy thing, but it can't be denied that once she figures out the flying part, things are likely to get much more convenient.]

I just, y'know. Need a little more practice with the wings, that's all.

[thesettingsun]

[There's worse things to be than fairies. You could be a demon, for instance.]

Flying's a lot of fun when you get the hang of it... I kind of miss it.

[That's the only part of October he misses.]

[sleepingknight]

[She's an imp, which is the closest equivalent, but still better than demon for sure.]

If I ever figure out these wings, maybe I can carry you? Ever since I started looking like this, I've gotten way stronger.

[thesettingsun]

That'd be nice. My friends still get flustered when I princess carry them sometimes.

[it would help if half of them didn't have crushes on him]

[sleepingknight]

[Shuji is just Too Popular.]

It's a deal, then! Once I figure out how to fly without crashing into windows or whatever, I owe you a trip!

[Crashing into what now.]

[thesettingsun]

Crashing into what now? [thanks bracket text] Have you gotten hurt?

[sleepingknight]

Not really!

[She waves a hand nonchalantly.]

I just smacked into someone's window the other day when I was practicing flying. Luckily, they let me in so I didn't fall and go splat on the sidewalk.

[...Thanks Yuuki. On the bright side, the fact that she's so chill about it probably means she wasn't too worried about it to begin with.]

[thesettingsun]

You sure you aren't part bird?

[If Yuuki's chill about it, it means Shuji can make jokes about it, probably.]

[sleepingknight]

Gosh, I hope not. Besides, I think my wings are too sparkly for it.

[thesettingsun]

Birds can be sparkly. Don't tell birds what they can't do.

[there's probably a sparkly bird I just can't be assed to look one up at 7 am]

[sleepingknight]

But do they constantly shed glitter on everything?

[Important questions.]

[thesettingsun]

Not as far as I know, but I'm not a bird expert.

[sleepingknight]

It would be pretty surprising if there was. I think there's some shimmery ones, but shedding a lot of sparkly stuff probably isn't good for animals, is it?

Well, in my case I'm pretty sure it's supposed to be fairy dust anyway, too.

[thesettingsun]

I don't know any stories about fairies running into windows. Just birds.

[why is that, is it because birds are real and fairies aren't supposed to be, perhaps]

[sleepingknight]

[Speaking of:]

Isn't that because fairies aren't real?

[She says, being a shining counterpoint to that, but. Look. She's not even a ""real"" fairy, probably. This is so weird.]