{1st Demon; Text}

[dejerate]

So. Question for everyone. Uh, these regains. I was told some could be pretty heavy or whatever but. A virus killing off anyone over thirteen, and vampires taking over? That seems pretty huge. Not sure if anyone else has a memory like that but. This was already annoying enough. Remembering meeting that blonde haired brat at the orphanage, and everything else with this damned thing. And I've only had this what? Not quite a month yet. I don't want to be remembering some virus killing everyone on Christmas, but now I sure won't get that out of my head.

Every time I see these damned decorations now I'm going to remember that. Shit. The hell does anyone actually adjust to dealing with this stuff? Do you ever? Or is it still just insane?

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[manufactured]

[Oh. That's...]

I don't know if I would say it gets easier. Having people to talk to does help, though it's understandable if no one in your immediate circle is someone you would turn to - whether due to a lack of any experience with this sort of thing, or just not wanting to speak of things like that with them. There are only so many things one can tell their friends in good conscience, after all.

I do have a fair amount of experience myself with memories regarding viral outbreaks, bioterrorism, and inhuman monsters, should venting be something you're interested in.

[dejerate]

I dunno. I mean, how do you talk about this with anyone? Even if you're close and trust them? If whatever other memories I get, if this is any indication, I'd rather not get any more.

Not that those assholes are likely going to care and actually listen.

Wait, seriously?

[manufactured]

Yes, seriously. It isn't particularly pleasant to remember, in my experience, and it never really gets moreso, but I assume from the sound of it that you're fairly recent on the app? If that's the case, then eventually it will become slightly easier to talk to others about it, simply due to the nature of interacting with people that are likewise on Retrospec. They're...understanding, at least, and though I'm personally not the sort to trust anyone, they do tend to have useful things to say and are often convenient for discussion of things that we can't bring to anyone off the app in general.

[...I mean, that was really clinical and kind of an asshole thing to just say in front of God and everyone, but hopefully it gets the point across.]

Obviously, I'd also like to not get any further memories like that, but Retrospec hasn't seen fit to stop in my case, either. But the people here have generally made it at least somewhat less hideous in terms of dealing with it.

[dejerate]

I just got it recently, yeah. I mean. I guess it's one thing that others are getting back weird memories or whatever but. This seems pretty far out there. I mean I know viruses and illnesses were huge problems centuries ago but not now. This memory still seemed fairly modern? Recent? I dunno. Maybe I'll feel more comfortable with all this after dealing with it a bit.

Or the opposite, if I keep getting memories like this. If this is any indication.