TEXT ♞ IT WASN'T ME, MA

[optimistical]

If Retrospec gives you an item that you suspect is a murder weapon, what do you do with it? Should it be turned into the police or do you just keep it somewhere...? And what if you accidentally already got your fingerprints all over it...?

... hypothetically asking.

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[optimistical]

I know, but I don't think we should run away from the truth. These are still our past lives, even as painful as they are.

I think it'd bother me more if I don't get back my memories and know how everything ended. It might end badly but at least then I'll know for sure instead of thinking about all what-ifs and letting my imagination get the better of me.

[steadycourse]

[In the beginning, he was just wary about his past self's behavior, now he's worried about seeing people murdered in front of him. It's possible that his past self witnessed a friend getting killed and then he'll have to remember another close friend dying--]

Even if your past self ends up getting killed or seeing all of his friends die?!

You'll experience all the emotions he felt!!

[optimistical]

[ it's not like naegi doesn't understand why people would want to turn away, to deny the

I know, Kiyotaka, and I know it'd be easier to pretend that these memories are fake or to reject them. I wouldn't blame anyone who'd want to believe that and I don't think anyone on the network would say anything either, but I can't ignore my memories.

At least for me, it feels like betraying the people in my memories. To say my memories are fake or refusing to accept them, it's like ignoring that the people in them ever existed. Even if it's hard to keep on going with these memories, I can't just ignore the people who died in them.

I don't think I can bring myself to forget them, even if I have to experience all the emotions my other self felt.

[steadycourse]

[For a while, he just stares at the text, unable to respond. What Naegi is saying isn't wrong... in fact, it's the right thing he should be doing, even if the memories are painful.

But he just doesn't want to witness someone dying, especially if he's the cause of it.

It takes a few minutes, but Ishida finally answers back.]

But they still existed even without us remembering everything! It's not like any of us would've remembered the killing game without Retrospec interfering with our lives!

what happened to the other half of my bracket stuff DW WHAT HAPPENED

[optimistical]

They would have but for me, I want them to also exist in my memories. I don't want them to be forgotten and even if I'll have to remember all the pain and emotions that I had to go through from losing them, I still want to remember that I'll be glad that I was able to meet and know them.

That's just how I want to approach it. I'm not saying that my way should be everyone's way of handling it. Actually, I don't really know if there's truly a "right" or "wrong" way when it comes to these memories, so I think it's okay if you don't want to accept your memories or reject them. For something like this, with how Retrospec is handling it, no one will blame anyone if they want to handle their other lives in whatever way that works best with them. For me, this is how I'll be dealing with them and my reasons for doing so.

dw eats comments it's true

[steadycourse]

[There's an even longer break before Ishida responds again.]

You're a strong person, Makoto.

i thought we got rid of frank the goat when we left livejournal

[optimistical]

Thank you but I think you're giving me too much credit. I'm just a little more optimistic than most people when it comes to these sort of things.

But if you ever need to talk about your memories or anything at all, Kiyotaka, you know you can always contact me. I'm sure that Byakuya and Kyouko would be willing to listen as well.

frank never goes away

[steadycourse]

Even so, that requires a certain amount of strength.

I appreciate that.

[He's not sure if he will talk, but it's nice to know that he has friends here. That's already more than he can ask for.]