{3rd Demon; Text}

[dejerate]

Guessing I'm not the only one here who apparently isn't human. Or, who isn't entirely human? I'm not sure at this point. But then, I guess that's to be expected when I remembered about Ashuramaru -- apparently my katana I got is supposed to have a demon in it or something. That's his name. Ashuramaru. Literally 'Perfect Ashura', from what I remember of Japanese.

But. I dunno, when even a demon tells you you're insane. Got to wonder what was going on. What I did that he said that.

I'm not sure how much more I can brush off with trying to ignore this. Trying to focus on school now that's back again and all, when I get memories like this. I dunno. Seems while these memories help fill things in it also leaves me with more questions. It's frustrating. Just like when we get messages from those jerks that run and made this insane app. And there's probably only so much that can be dealt with or brushed aside for homework or training to use the sword to tire myself out.

Not to mention the sudden dome of darkness and all recently too. I get that others said to try focus on things here to live a normal life still but. I'm seriously questioning how the fuck that is possible. All things considered.

Even with what little context I have for this other me or other life or whatever this is supposed to be.

Comments

[matchbreaker]

Well that and you don't have to hold responsibility for everything there

[ Even if ... mmmmmrrr. ]

What, your dad's oblivious?

[dejerate]

My foster dad doesn't have the app,
so. He has no clue on all this.

[matchbreaker]

The fights you get in are because of the app?

[dejerate]

What? No. Not always. Look if someone is a jerk, I'm allowed to punch them. Simple. They aren't a jerk,
I leave them alone.

[matchbreaker]

[ That is literally not true that's assault but ... whatever. ]

That is going to get you in some trouble, you know.

[dejerate]

What, when did you become my mother?

[Yuu plz.]

[matchbreaker]

I'm not I'm just concerned is all.

[dejerate]

Not like I've been in hosptial over it or anything.

[matchbreaker]

That's not the only risk, you know.

[dejerate]

I haven't been arrested from it or anything either.

[matchbreaker]

Yet in both of those cases

[dejerate]

I've been fine. A busted nose now and then won't kill me. And it isn't like I'm the only one either.

[matchbreaker]

Of course you aren't but that doesn't make it right. I'm sure you're worrying someone or another, or you will be later.

[dejerate]

My foster dad just gets frustrated and lectures me. Or yells.

[Yes. Because he worries about your shenanigans, Yuichiro. Gosh.]

[matchbreaker]

You don't say...

Obviously, that's worry.

[dejerate]

I figured he was just getting annoyed.

[matchbreaker]

Well, I'm sure there's that too.

[dejerate]

He gets frustrated with that as it is. Without adding the app and all in the mix too.

[matchbreaker]

Shouldn't that mean you should endeavor to cause less trouble?

[dejerate]

Maybe. Probably. Not about to try making any promises, with this app and all though.

[matchbreaker]

Sheesh that doesn't override everything.

Or does it for you?

I'm sorry you're having a rough time now.

[dejerate]

I'm not saying that's an excuse.
Just that I'm not gonna promise him I won't get in trouble with. All of this. Even if he has no idea on the half of it.

The stuff I've been regaining isn't exactly pleasant memories.

[matchbreaker]

That's the case for a lot of people. Them not being pleasant, I mean.

[dejerate]

Never said it was a competition.
It's just really been messing with me, especially lately.

[matchbreaker]

No, I understand.

Try to keep ahold of yourself, though. Falling too far down the rabbit hole there's not healthy for anyone. Find people to talk about things if you want, or maybe find some other outlet.