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[ It's ass at night and Elda Marker, made more awake by the fact she keeps finding herself waking up later and later especially on weekends when her son doesn't have school is wide awake. As such, she makes her own variation on one of those cerebral posts a friend of hers makes sometimes: ]

So what's something you've wanted to tell someone, but haven't? Or something you absolutely don't want to tell someone? Or have been fretting about? I'm no qualified therapist, but I am older than many of the people on this app, so maybe I can help. Even if I can't, I can hear it out.

I'll make mine public: The woman in my memories survived an attempt to exterminate her race, and I have no idea how to begin to handle that memory. I've tried to ignore it for months.

Mine's related to Retrospec stuff, but it doesn't have to be obviously.

[ On and OOC feel free to have your responses here assumed to be to her inbox for privacy if you want or have them be public for people. Specify if you want I'll roll with whatever ... or respond to her own admission if you want ]

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[ Yukine...

It's odd, to see the name like this. Given he was a minor, the name wasn't reported in the news ~~probably?~~ but she was working for one of the boy's fathers. More irregularly - and honestly now he's off the app she might need to quit even if she didn't have the heart to just yet what with his son dying but...

It coils in her, twists something terribly. ]

I'm amazed still that we have a criminal community. Shows my ignorance, I suppose.

Not at all. Recolle's crime rate is still low for a city its size and there is no gang activity.

[ He tells his phone to text this though it feels meaningless when the murder struck as close as it did. ]

This shouldn't have happened.

No, it really shouldn't have.

Are you prepared to go further like that?

I know it's within my capabilities. I have the memories to prove that.

I guess I'm hesitating to cross that line if I'm talking about it instead of simply doing.

It is and it isn't. After all, I've remembered attempted murder... and I'd like to think that's not something I'd see for myself.

I've walked the line before in this life to be honest. That's why I believe I could cross it. Before Retrospec entered our lives I realized I was someone who was adept at fighting and violence. I haven't been able to talk about it openly with anyone until recently.

Before? Did you get in fights as a child?

I wasn't a little barbarian as a kid, no.
My dad taught me how to throw a punch and Tatsuo taught me some other techniques for self defense. I practiced, stayed in shape, didn't use them for years.

Then fresh out of law school I began dating a PI and she brought me in on a case. At first it was just that two heads were better than one. Then I came along on her investigation and when we finally found the man we were looking for he tried to fight his way past us. When I stopped him something clicked into place. Next thing you knew I was there with her every time she needed a partner to help her corner a crook, every time an abusive husband broke his restraining order.

Unless the state has a lot of respect for her business I'm surprised that didn't stymie your law career more. I mean yeah it's legal but that's something internal politics could easily hold against you.

But huh...

Honestly, that's interesting, that you felt that sort of thing the whole time. Maybe it's just my lack of exposure, but I still don't really feel a strong connection to violence.

She's the type of woman who can charm just about anyone and have them wrapped around her finger within minutes. Between that and her hacking skills, not to mention all the friends she has in the local police, I never heard a word of any threat to report her and the DA's office was none the wiser. It came to an end though. I broke it off and kept to my work. Once my niece was in the picture I thought I had put everything from that part of my life behind me. Up until Retrospec.

It's difficult to put into words; I wish I remembered how he would have explained it. When I told Mary she understood I wanted to help people. I don't think she believed that I'm dangerous though. I understand if it's hard to accept, especially for people who know me.

[ Christ. ]

You're being real open with me, you know that? I know I asked and said you could, but it's still surprising.

Anyway, no,I understand that desire to want to help people. That's not a bad thing and especially younger people or people with a certain personality will see that as the main takeaway to stating you want to go out and try to be a superhero. Especially with our world being what it is these days.

Glad that break up worked out okay for you.

She and I can hardly stand to be in the same room but yes, it worked out all things considered.

Guess now that you know I feel the need to be more upfront to make up for deceiving you before.
Maybe I'm rehearsing for Confessional.
Could be the late hour.
I've been a little out of it since the "resonance" spread. Added an entire new layer of noise to the city.

[ The headaches came back and brought a need to determine what noises are from physical people and which are not. Some wrong turns and mistakes were made navigating and his typical medical treatment after a night out was unavailable with Elliot taking the month off from business. Between that, work, and the robbery turned murder he had been on the wrong side of town to stop it has been quite the month already. ]

Wait the what? Did I miss or forget the memo about something?

Maybe you haven't been affected yet.
I can hear spirits now. I asked around and others said they could also see them faintly. It seems all the Retrospec users are starting to.

And that's called resonance?

I've been able to see and hear ghosts since like October so that's that for me.

That's what others are calling it. It's not what you find in the dictionary if you look up the word.

Even people without the ability in their Other Life have it now. I'm told they can't see spirits completely though, only a dim outline. That's impressive though. I didn't realize you had been seeing ghosts all this time.

[ She almost makes a thing out of the resonance but... nah. She laughs all the same, itching her cheek a moment. impressive... huh.

Given she's texting with a blind man the fact he's had to say most of this out loud, right? That's about as much, if you ask her. ]

Not that much, really. Some more of them were pranking people then and I just was able to see them since then. It just kind of is what it is.

I hadn't thought of ghosts or spirits as childlike tricksters until now. Growing up they were a subject for scary stories, not comedy. I couldn't make up my mind if I believed they were real or not. Did it surprise you when you discovered them?

I might just be too practical by half, but when I was getting harassed by sexist ghost bears, I just wanted to knock their clocks off.

[ SHRUG ]

I suppose either way, I knew they were real in the world she came from before I saw any here, so...

Sexist ghost bears? I hope they're not common.

[ What the hell bear ghosts? ]

I've not run into them too much since, at least. But there's a surprising number of ghosts of various stripes around. Mostly cheeky looking things.

Cheeky looking? So big obnoxious smiles?

Yeah! Things like that or like little impish things. You know, troublemakers.

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